Out now.
Each time I get too sad of the current me, I tend to get back on this blog and read on how stupid I used to be in the past and felt a little better of the current me.
Each time I came up with the courage of writing again, it will only last on the first post "of the time I had the courage to write again" and then it died. Died instantly after the remorse post of reflecting all the things in the past.
I tend to leave the past year, after year. And tend to repeat the same thing over and over and over again. I realised that I've been doing it yearly.
Some may asked why now?
Maybe because it finally came into realisation that I am old enough to stop being stupid.
It's time to grow old.
Probably it's not forgiving everyone that I kept blaming on why I felt miserable sometimes.
Probably it's time to forgive myself.
Ya Allah, give me courage to start now.
Sidenotes:
11 months from the last post is way too long for self reflecting.
