He's so sexy with his guitar !

Common fact : Guitarists are fudging Sexy ! Just like this one. Dumping Wes Borland and going for him !

:*: The Vagina Monologues :*:

" I (HEART) My Vagina."

High school students fight to wear vagina buttons :

Students at Winona Senior High School in Minnesota are fighting for their right to wear souvenir buttons from TheVagina Monologues emblazoned with "I (HEART) My Vagina." The principal believes the buttons are against school policy.
* http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Vagina_Monologues

From the Winona Daily News:
A month after she began donning the button, (Carrie) Rethlefsen was told to take it off. But Rethlefsen considers the button a matter of free speech. "I think you need to be bold for things to change," she said. "I'm wearing this to support sexual awareness, gender equality, women's rights and freedom of speech."

While Rethlefsen views the button simply as having a pro-woman message, (principal Nancy) Wondrasch said others could have other interpretations.

"I believe in freedom of speech, and I believe in women's rights," Wondrasch said. "But I also believe this could be construed as offensive or harassment."

The principal said some staff view the button as offensive, but not because they are ashamed of talking about vaginas. One female employee told her she doesn't want women being heralded for their sexual parts, but their strong mind and good hearts.

Too many women are ashamed to talk about their sexuality, Rethlefsen said.

I watched the stage play before last year. The Vagina Monologues wasn't a big hit in Malaysia. Only social activists and the women rights council supported them. On the day it was stage in Bangsar few groups of people went to watch it, I went cause I was under this "No Apologies" campaign. Oh yeah, we were told to join this "Abstinence from Sex before marriage" program, since we were in a girl's school, they treated us like some bunch of naive girls who werent exposed to the guys out there. Like we don't know what to do if a guy invited us to his crib. It was compulsary for us to join, especially the ones in Form 4 and Form 5 or what we call the Seniors.

I remembered the program it was fun. Yeah at the end of the session we were told to sign the pledge card, which says "I'll stay away from sex before marriage, and be faithful..." yada yada yada..you know what I mean. My ex boyfriend thinks that the whole pledge card thing is funny, and everytime he see me he would be asking "Still have the pledge card with you?" We have to sign it with a witness as for my case, my best friend was my witness and vice versa. The reason most of us signed the pledge card was because it is a very nice card, black colour with red bloody eerie fonts saying "No Apologies"..but I wonder who really stick to the pledge..lol..

I saw the news about "High School Student fights To Wear Vagina Buttons" from a daily news site, and when I read the line "I'm wearing this to support sexual awareness, gender equality, women's rights and freedom of speech." recalls back memories about the whole sexual awareness campaign in my school.

It intrigues me to look up on it after I had my late night shower. So there's this official site for this whole "Vagina Monologues" program and I browsed through it.
* http://www.vday.org/main.html

As usual it provides articles and informations on this whole sex thing. But the only main attraction to me was the song about "if you lost" your virginity. Hearing it once already creeps the hell out of me from having my future sexual intercourse. If only I could get the lyrics, and post it up. I've search for it but couldnt find the exact lyrics I wanted. I'll work on that...for now just listen to the song. The title is Broken by Betty. Betty is some 3 piece band, their songs were mostly on women...innocence....yada yada you name it.
*Broken by Betty : http://www.vday.org/static/download/broken.mp3
*Betty's official site: http://www.hellobetty.com

But after hearing it twice it's such a turn on actually, intrigues your mind on "oh yeah thats what happen if you do it now". Err kids don't try this at home, haha...I'm old enough so sue me ! I'm joking allright, turning 18 this coming June.

I came across their V-Day Store .. http://www.store-vday.org/ . Again this site fascinated me with their merchandise. I was hoping to find that " I (HEART) My Vagina "..souvenir button, that would be cool, and get couple of them and start pinning them on my top at both of my nipples or maybe at the zip of my pants and make the headline of your local newspaper....hahaha..

Oh god..if my boyfriend, Bakry ever wear this..I'll be laughing till I don't know when...and sheesh...I actually had fun writing this out...Oh well my fellow readers..I have to go now. Toodles.

I definitely (HEART) my vagina,
:*:Eryn:*:

:*: Broken :*:

Last drips of my soul had dropped, deep into the earth.

Had been buried alive by my own precious love, cause I'm hurt suffocating.

I'm near to death, I cant see what's beyond this. I looked so pissed, but my pains been held in my burning fist. Many desires needed to be completed, I want a brand new life.

I want you to be here always helping me to survive, leading me to the path that once, I'm used to.

Pray to god that I wont find it, cause its like killing you.

Leaving all these nonsense and lies behind me, I'm walkin away.

Entering a new dimension of happiness, so lets just pray - that I wont find it, cause I dont wanna leave you.

Emptiness is too hard for me to take, though maybe I own a few - of moments where I wanna attempt suicide, death is easy but what will happen to me after that ?

Tears wont replace me when I dissapear. I'm more like the wind in the atmosphere. Invisible to everyone, but still - whatever happens I'm here..

I dont wanna risk it all, puttin my life on the line waiting for someone to cut it off. But I wanna stay..

Blind, pain and sadness is nothing to me. I'm used to all of that. How else could I express this feeling ?

You wont understand. I'm gone, leaving this world, my love and life.

No more choices should be made now, its me who decides.

I'm not strong enough,

:*: Eryn :*:

:*: The Tenth Mile :*:

Written with a pen,
Sealed with a kiss.
If you love me,
Please answer me this.

Are we lover's or are we not,
You told me once but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true,
So I can say I am here for you.

For all the people I have ever met,
Your the one I won't forget.
And if I die before you do,
I'll go to heaven,
And I will wait for you.

I'll give the angels back their wings,
And risk the loss of everything.
Just to have a lover like you,
Is enough to prove that love is true.


I don't know who wrote that poem but I think it's lovely. Happy 10th month anniversary Bakry. Loving you loads. I can't wait for you to come back this coming holidays ! Hmmm I can't wait for June and surely can't wait for July !

Counting the days till July 7th,
Eryn.

Happy Anniversary.

Always I will love you babe,
You mean the world to me.
I just want to wish you babe,
Another Happy Anniversary.
Together we share a most beautiful love,
Its just so perfect and true.
My darling , I do so love you.
I know times have been hard for you,
But your always happy,and never blue.
So let me say this one special thing to you.
Darling I will always,
Always love only you.

Hey you, how long has it been ? 10 months..hmmm..not bad huh ?
There are ups and downs...but we'll try to work it out, ok ?
10 months.. wow...hahaha....

We'll try our best ok?

: ) Muah.

:*: Eryn is on a Rose Rush :*:

As I was drinking my long time favourite drink, which is Rose Rush..I encountered some greek history on Rose. The Rose is a flower of Love. It was created by Chloris, the Greek goddess of flowers, from a lifeless body of a nymph which she found one day in a clearing in the woods. She asked the help of Aphrodite, the goddess of love who gave her beauty ; Dionysus, the god of wine, added nectar to give her a sweet scent, and the three Graces gave her charm, brightness and joy. Then Zephyr, the West Wind, blew away the clouds so that Apollo, the sun god, could shine and make the flower bloom. And so the Rose was born.

Amazing facts. But you have to taste it to feel the whole rose thing. Lene brought like a dozen to my house, cause you cant find Rose Rush around KL unless you hit the clubs and I'm not sure whether all clubs sells this. Singapore product but widely selling in the UK tho. The beverage has an attractive appearance : clear and slightly viscous. On the nose there are good rose aromatics, which persist through the palate. The sweetness and thickness on the body may be quite agressive initially but are perfect with ice. On the finish the slightly bitter notes of crushed roses come through, adding a touch of extra interest.

Haha..I'm promoting for them. Oh well. 10 cans to go.

On a Rose Rush,
:*: Eryn :*:

:*: From the Sidewalks :*:

Today is the 13th of April. But it felt like my mind still stuck in January. Fourth month of the year, and we're still dazed doing nothing. Yeah, I've been asking around like 3/4 of my friends stuck at home waiting for college and stuff. Me ? Waiting to hit the books again, probably in June.

Recapturing memories. I miss hanging out at the sidewalks with my friends looking thru our school field, eat our candies and throwing the wrappers in the drain like nobody's business. From the sidewalks, we could see a road opposite of it. Giggling like mad, about who's brother is that waiting in the car ? " OMG he's so cute " " Look at her mum " and such...We would say good-bye, as our rides arrived to fetch us home. See each other the next day, and repeat the whole process all over again. To my friends, I miss you guys a lot. Hit me back for a chat or something, it seems like I'm the one did all the calling....

Not just friends, I was looking thru another "sidewalk" of my life. My relationship with my boyfriend Bakry. Next week it's gonna be the 10th month. Sheesh..time flies so fast. By the time he got back from Australia for holidays, it's gonna be more than one year. I'm missing him right now, this very moment. Hey 4 months and a half waiting, aren't that bad after all. Why I keep fuss things over ? Well i realised my mistakes now, and working myself towards it. Like what Bakry told me few mins ago just coz he is coming to back msia and we are back on good terms, doesnt mean we can slack off. After 10 months yeah, it's such a waste to just let it go. Love you so much Bakry.

The bridges are crumpled,
The water soaks into rocks,
That fell at the bottom of the road. (At the end the town)
The town that we lived in.
The memories shakin apart from the weeds that grow.

Over the sidewalks,
Running away from the streets we knew,
Sidewalks,
Like the time we thought was made for you.
Or..

Out on the front porch,
Watching the cars as they go by,
Eighteen blue, twenty one grey,
Looking ahead for the first time that we could drive,
Out on our own,
To speed away.

All of days that past us by,
All of the sun is gone...
Away..


I wondered if the next place I'm gonna study at...is there a nice Sidewalk?
:*: Eryn:*:

Look at this cute lil fella name Junior, a Jack Russell breed. I'm gonna dog-nap it from my friend Jun Win...he's so cute...and walk around like a socialite maybe ? Lol...Thanks to Jun Win for the picture.

:*: The Day Eryn Discovered Fire :*:

Just another Monday, and I'm sick. Total wrecked out, woke up around 2.05 pm after receiving phone call from dad who tried to reached me for the past 30 mins..Lol..told him i "overslept"..when actually I was going thru this recovering process the result of not sleeping the past Saturday, as you read my previous post I went out at 4am, came back around 8.20am..and I didnt sleep till 3am today. When I finally fall asleep, this what happened WreCkeD OuT..lol..

Having this bloody sore throat, ughhh I felt like I just eaten a Taco shell made from sand paper...Drank a glass of milk, then I saw Bakry online, I messaged him but he didnt reply and went offline after that. Called his hp..but he didnt answered, ughhh. He better have a reasonable explanation.

Then I was playing with my mp3 list player, lol..I apparently fall in love with one of the skins, it is just darn cute. Take a look at it :

It was always there at the preferences section, but knowing Eryn..she never bothers to browse around or bother clicking..unless she's darn BoRed..yeah I am so bored right now and this sore throat is killing me. I think it is so cute, the "teeth" move along as the song is playing..haha ignore it, I'm just bored..and crapping. Gonna eat my macaroni and shrooms' now. Toodles.

Note : My desktop background is Pink !

Pink Addict,

Eryn.

:*: First Love of a Royal Prince :*:

First Love of a Royal Prince - lol sounds familiar right ? Yeah some Korean show I've been watching, but he aint a prince after all..just some dude who lives a wealthy life.

I met my royal prince today..more like this morning at 4 am. Lately I've been meeting people wee in the morning. Lol, two crazy ass people. Princess Eryn and Raja Adam. We're once a pair, but now we're just being an ex to each other and remains bestfriend. Whoa...it's been 1 and 1/2 years since we last met. He still the same jovial lanky Adam , I use to fall for. He said I havent change much, well I barely change at all he said...just like my hair getting longer..lol.

We had Coke, bought 2 bottles but end up sharing one..haha reminds me of the Mc Flurry story..when we're starting to be friends..he offered his Mc Flurry to me, right after he eat it like 2 spoons..Ughhh thats disgusting..lol and he told me " Why not ? ".." We masyarakat muhibah...can share share ". Then he got me addicted to Mc Flurry..those were the days, right until the day we broke it off for no reason. He left me hanging. No one should be blame. We're just young and barely serious in the relationship.

Then started off my day with roti canai and teh tarik at that pink nasi kandar restaurant in Damansara - 6.30am whey....lol he was stressed out looking at the way im eating my roti canai...and offered to cut it for me after i flung the fork over the table.. Eryn + roti canai + fork + spoons = Ugh-ly sight. I had my teh tarik double StRaws...lol..if you know me well, you'll get the whole double straws issue.

Catching back on old times, a lot we missed out since he was stuck in Pahang...kesian..and he's going back to Pahang again today..sigh..baru jumpa dah nak balik.Gotta wait till next 2 week till he's back in Kay-Elle. Adam, you better recover..I'm always here for you. : )

P/s: My hibernation period just last like 3 days. Hmm good progress.

Forever a Princess,
Eryn.

:*: Hibernation :*:

Hey its me Eryn. Just wanna say that I'm not gonna blog for few days, probably few weeks, or probably forever. I'm gonna hibernate and isolate myself for a while, till i figure out what's going on with me. This state of depression killing me softly inside, and I can't think straight. Don't feel sorry for me aight ? Well of course you don't , it aint worth it anyway. Let me mourn for the death of the inner me and I'll recover soon enough.

I'll put the pen down for now,
Eryn.

:*: I'd rather bleed with cuts of love :*:

I've never written a love song
That didn't end in tears
Maybe you'll rewrite my love song
If you can replace my fears
I need your patience and guidance
And all your lovin' and more
When thunder rolls through my life
Will you be able to weather the storm?
There's so much I would give ya, baby
If I'd only let myself
There's this well of emotions
I feel I must protect
But what's the point of this armor
If it keeps the love away, too?

I'd rather bleed with cuts of love
Than live without any scars
Baby, can I trust this?
Or do all things end?
I need to hear that you'd die for me
Again and again and again
So tell me when you look in my eyes
Can you share all the pain and happy times'
Cause I will love you for the rest of my life
This is my very first love song
That didn't end in tears
I think you re-wrote my love song
For the rest of my years
I will love you for the rest of my Life

:*: Missing May :*:

I'm missing my girl friend - May Lee. My good girl friend since i was 7. Missing the good times. Hell yeah our stories back in our lovely primary school, Sri Inai Junior KL.

Sigh. She's in that god damn National Service for 3 freaking months, she'll be back in June. I was on her blog http://saggytarius.blogspot.com page few hours ago, and realised she wrote like few lines about me a day before she left for that friggin camp, damn im touched. Especially around this time when she's aint around.

" I'm gonna miss all my chatting friends ! WWAaAaaaa!!!!! especially Eryn sayang kuu... and Kavin!! this 2 people, sleep early morning, wakeup late noon. sigh...haha.. all the jiwang song exchange thingy with eryn, the gosippings bout *ahem ahem* budak sri inai tu ;p mwuhahaha..and u , listening to me babble about naz-lah, muthu, norman-laa, this-lah..that-laa.. hahaa... waaaaaa!!!!! "

I talked to her on Saturday and Sunday. The chinese campers..they had 3 days holiday. She told me she's sick..aww poor May. hope she's ok now, and yeah lacking of sleep...Knowing May - sleeping was like her full time job..lol..

Missing May,
Eryn.

Please respect my privacy.. 

What ya looking at ? 

Drinking my milk on my crib. 

Sorry you intruder, i mistaken you as my brother, cause we have the same colour.. 

No i dont want my pic to be taken.. 

Me again !! 

Me taking a nap on my pillow 

At night i worked as a security guard 

Only one cat could stay and that is me ! 

Ugghhh i use to fit in this.. 

My attempt to be the next bonzai kitty.. www.bonsaikitten.com ..

Some lame teasing game with my owner 

Sleeping with my teddy bear 

Me again ! 

Hello my name is Miera the Orange Cat, sitting in my baby pram.. 

:*: It could have been you :*:

Jenny was so happy about the house they had found.
For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town.
She unpacked her things with such great ease.
As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze.
How wonderful it was to have her own room.
School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon.
There'd be sleep-overs, and parties ; she was so happy
It's just the way she wanted her life to be.

On the first day of school, everything went great.
She made new friends and even got a date!
She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be,
Because I just got a date with the star of the team!"
To be known in this school you had to have clout,
And dating this guy would sure help her out.
There was only one problem stopping her fate.
Her parents had said she was too young to date.
"Well I just won't tell them the entire truth.
They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?"
Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night.
Her parents frowned but said, "All right."
Excited, she got ready for the big event
But as she rushed around like she had no sense,
She began to feel guilty about all the lies,
But what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride?

Well the pizza was good, and the party was great,
But the moonlight ride would have to wait.
For Dan was half drunk by this time.
But he kissed her and said that he was just fine.
Then the room filled with smoked and Dan took a puff.
Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff.
Now Dan was ready to ride to the point
But only after he'd smoked another joint.
They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride,
Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive.

They finally made it to the point at last,
And Dan started trying to make a pass.
A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all
(and by a pass, I don't mean playing football.)
"Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young.
Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb."
With all of her might, she pushed Dan away:
"Please take me home, I don't want to stay."
Dan cranked up the engine and floored the gas.
In a matter of seconds they were going too fast.

As Dan drove on in a fit of wild anger,
Jenny knew that her life was in danger.
She begged and pleaded for him to slow down,
But he just got faster as they neared the town.
"Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied.
I really went out for a moonlight ride."
Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash.
"Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!"
She doesn't remember the force of impact.
Just that everything all of a sudden went black.
She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble,
And heard, "call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble!
Voices she heard...a few words at best.
But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck.
Then wondered to herself if Dan was all right,
And if the people in the other car was alive.

She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad.
"You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad."
These voices echoed inside her head,
As they gently told her that Dan was dead.
They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do.
But it looks as if we'll lose you too."
"But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried.
"We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."
Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done,
I only wanted to have just one night of fun."
"Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim,
And wish I could return their families to them."
"Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied,
And that it's my fault so many have died.
Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?"
The nurse just stood there-she never agreed.
But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes.
And a few moments later Jenny died.

A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best
To bid that girl her one last request?"
She looked at the man with eyes so sad.
"Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."
This story is sad and unpleasant but true,
So young people take heed, it could have been you.