:*: Go Fug Yourself :*:

Humorous website, a new way of fashion critics express themselves. Pretty funny check it out. Click this blog title for easier reference.
http://www.gofugyourself.com

Either that you could also check out this year nominees for "so called" blog awards with cheap prizes up for grabs, lol.
http://2005.bloggies.com

fug•ly (adj.)
frightfully ugly; of or pertaining to something beyond the boundaries of normal unattractiveness.
Ex: "That 'Kabbalists Do It Better' trucker hat is fugly."

fug (n.)
1. A state of extreme ugliness.
Ex: "The level of fug at the Video Music Awards is always hard to stomach."

2. A proper name for someone possessed of eternal heinousness, as Chloe Sevigny:
Ex: "Oh look, there's Fug, looking all miserable and dour in her black turtleneck and white frilly farm dress.

"fug•ging (v.)
The act of posting on one's blog in order to identify something excruciatingly ugly.
Ex: "Hey, I am fugging Li'l Kim again for wearing only a tiny piece of cloth."

:*: I felt like a total wreck :*:

Damn tired, well not exactly tired just felt like closing my eyes a lil more longer. Keep waking up during my sleep. These few days my blog is due a day late. Just felt like no mood to write at the end of the day yesterday. I'm not a celebrity who has a controversial life and much gossips around me to pen it down in a blog. Even if im a celebrity, i dont think i have time to write a blog anyway, lol - probably my private secretary would handle this offcial site of me, which some stupid pics, tour news, autobiography - argh life. It's pretty crap sometimes, you wish you have everything, but not everything you have is worth anything.

Woke up at 10am. Slept back till 12, woke up again 12.45pm. Had this wonderful Dettol bath - i use to have this alergic with them and now i love Dettol, lol. Crazy me. Online, nobody is on. Well some of them, but dont want to bother them. Called my bf, he went to Sunway College for some reasons. I wonder whats the important thing going on.

Watch tv, while waiting. Then i start to close my eyes. Miss that bloody show. I'm not tired, but drowsy ? Drowsy but not tired ? I dont know how to explain, my biological clock going cookie these days.

I'm still waiting for my bf to come back home, missing him.

Stand by me,
Eryn

Oh my god, he's so cute - we'll name him Deasel, man - he is so adorable. Dont show me your cute pets, i might go hug him all day like what i did to Ray,Kaiser,Misty,Senna,and Romeo - Bakry's big fat cats, argh lembutnya..nak hug Ray sekarang.. 

:*: Maybe come what may :*:

Life - its a delicate thing. You could always mend a broken heart, but could you mend a broken life ? Broken life as in , encounter with death thats what i meant. There is such thing as life after death, but that means its either hell or heaven baby, you could never have a second life on earth.

Everything you owned, everything you had - gone in as you close your eyes, waiting to depart to the next level.

You can see your love ones smile anymore. You cant tell them how much you love them, and you cant tell them that you appreciate them. Imagine if things like this happen, and you didnt get your last chance to say good bye.

As for now, im so happy to be blessed with wonderful loving people around me - especially my bf, Bakry. We went thru' a lot these past few weeks. I'm so grateful to receive a second chance, after what i've done. I know he's the one for me, nobody else. Yeah sound pretty crap right ? But why must you let go of a good oppurtunity to be with someone who really loves you and doesnt want you for other reason ? Someone who cares, who'll be there no matter how "schmelly" you are : ) . Or how pathetic your life is . Chances like this only happen one in a million - ok probably twice in a life time for some people, but if occurs more than once meaning thats not true love. Right ? Think about it.

Bakry prooved that right, altho' its not thru' fire and flame. But after what happen, our love still remains. I love him so much.

Unbreakable,

Eryn.

Sometimes...

Sometimes you need it to be smacked right in your face in order for you to see how important life is... how you should take care of it..how you should cherish it.. I love my family, my gf, my friends, and Hell yea, i love to be alive:)

I love to be able to hug my gf, to be able to bug my parents and siblings, and yes, i love to be able to eat my mee goreng with a glass of cold soy milk while surfing the net..ahhh..heaven...

My gf just woke up...and heh, i bet she's really scchhmmeeelllyyyy right now..heh...my scchmmeelllyy ppoooo,,haha..bet she's gonna kill me..but hey, even if she's scchhmmeellyy, she's still my babe..

And remember, eryn... its 11 + 2 reserves... ok? one a year..deal? heheh
Sayang sangat..muah...

ok, i know today's first blog sucks..and hey, sue me... i havent shifted from first gear yet..

i love you eryn..soooo much

Of course add me too - haha.. its_me_eryn@hotmail.com 

Add my boyfriend up in friendster : bakry7@hotmail.com 

:*: Topic of the day - music :*:

Music is my life, my world, my colour, i'll be dead without music - so Mr DJ what ya waiting for put the record on and push the tempo baby ! Well for the interest of music too, i got my butt into trouble.. lol..to those who knew about it understand what im crapping about....aint gonna talk much about it now - whats done is done, looking forward for what yet to come : theres so much left to learn, and no one left to fight at this freaking time..lol..

If god was a dj, life is a dancefloor,
love is the rhythm, and you are the music.

Accompanying my friend DJ Chaos, we talk about local acts - hey look our music is revolving each day, but i mean those music real independant music..not those freaking malay bands or female singers.. talking about people who got into music for fast money, fame and popularity....check the link out by clicking the title of today's post, its a great site for local acts, you could even promote your new talent..or band or anything.. it is open to many genres..

Shared music clips with Justin - who's a great friend of mine, who hear me yacks all the time..lol..pretty inclined in music..never thought we could really talk about music till 4 freaking am ! Lol..yeah and he's a sound engineer who works for Jason Lo. Single and available - pretty picky...ladies dengar tu...good package overall..good listener, and my personal advicer.. and he's only 20 this year..lol..who also works as my plastic knight + bodyguard + DJ killer + music listener...a day job without pay....poor him.....but he's pizza dude..man, Justin i wonder how you manage to stand up with me..thanks anyway..

Highlight of everyday : of course it'll be missing my bf, altho' just met yesterday i miss him already ! I love him for sure..thanks for the poem sayang... thanks for being patient..sorry cause i disturb you when you're in the middle on playing game with your 2nd gf, Darren..lol..

Boys would be boys..never knew i got a package of a guy who is sweet, caring, loving, cute, and he loves those freaking games which drives me mad.. i dont know how they get hooked to it.. if im so bored my only companion is my music..lol.. but for now, if im bored or cant sleep my companion is my bf - a living chatter box...sayang dia sangat..Love my Bakry..

Well tomorrow is another day,

Eryn.

There comes a time in someone's life,
When they want to say those special words,
I have been there once before,
Yet this is all new to you!

I thought about it when I once was there,
and how I could make this special for you,
I wondered and pondered,
and finally came through!

I asked you to go out to dinner with me,
Then a late night walk on the beach,
I looked into your eyes,
and said that 3 word special,I love you!

As you glanced back at me,
Wondering what you would say,
You suprised my prescene with a romantic kiss,
and a new founded I love you back!

heres something for u, comel.. :)

muah..i love u

Just another boring friday....

well, this is my review for friday... :P haha..daily review.. i hope i'll do it daily..

Nothing special happened today, woke up at noon,,,waited for my gf to come online a few hours after that, ate lunch, talked to her whole day...man,i love her. :)

got to play a few rounds of Warcraft online while waiting for my gf to finish bathing..it is a good game..one of those games where people wont stop playing since there will always be someone who'll come up with a new map or a new custom game... worth your money, if u ask me..

Went to the cyber cafe for a while just now, and we practically waited for 40 mins.. You see, when we reached there, there were 3 pcs free... and the counter guy asked if we booked 3 pcs early one...Obviously, we said no. so we figured that we'll have to wait for the whoever it was who booked it to take those pcs first before it would be out turn. Fine..we waited..

Then, 3 guys came in and asked for 3 pcs,...and the counter guy asked whether THEY booked those 3 pcs...they said no..but the counter guy gave em the pcs anyway. We were like "what the **** in gods name??" and the guy said " oh..u wanted pcs?"

By all that's holy, why would someone go to a cyber cafe and wait in font of the counter if they were not waiting for free pcs? i mean, hello!! i wouldnt be wasting my time to look at a bunch of schoolkids play games... i go there so I can play games..not look at people playing em...

aih..but all is forgiven,,, he didnt look bright anyway...

i love my comel.. heh... kinda had some "mood ruining" moments just now,,but its all settled..

Do u know, there are people in this world, who, when they do not get what they want from someone, they'll go around spreading rumors/bad stories about that person.. i mean, please.. look into a mirror before u start bad mouthing others... aih...

i love eryn so much...i love the internet... i love late night documentaries...but its 4.30 am..and i need to go now.. hehe...

signing out...

i love eryn.

:*:Quality time:*:

Quality time - what is it all about ? Obviously we're talking about time together, doesnt matter if its with yourself : by indulging yourself with stuff you love to do, eating chocos or just spending time grooming yourself , quality time with your friend and family. Well the quality time im talking about is - spending time with my boyfriend, Bakry.

Accompanied him buy his WarCraft 3.. yeah the game where his friend told him to buy 2 years ago..lol only today he wanna buy. Then we went back to his house, and tested his "soundproof" crib..lol and it still need some repair..lol..

We also sat at the kitchen with his parents - yeah we had fun, joking stuff...and his mum is stuffing me up..never mind as long ill turn up as the PhAt gf..lol *Physically Attractive*...

Then we hang out, more hugs and kisses - yeah thats all about it, quality time with my bf. It doesnt matter where we are, as long we're happy together. Gonna spend more time with him, cause he's going back Australia soon. Sigh, im gonna miss him.

p/s: Looking forward to Valentine.

Eryn

This is my review of the day..hehe

wow... what a great day today,

i get to see my gf, eryn..i get to buy this pc game that i have been searchin for a while.. and most of all, i got to see my parents,eryn and myself having fun talk in the kitchen while having some snacks..hey, if my family is happy with her, i'm happy..freaking happy

i remember how my mom made eryn eat all kinds of food..haha..looks as if she is stuffin eryn..to make her fat and juicy..for..dinner...MUAHAHHAHAHHHHA!!! Eryn Curry...with potatos..

Oh, funny thing happened, eryn and i were trying to steal a kiss, and suddenly she thought my brother was looking at us,,hahah...u should see the look on her face..luckily, my bro was sleeping and just so happened his head was turned towards us.. heh

i love u so much eryn..so so much.. :)

hey, dream of me, ok?

bakry, signing out.

PS: i need to sound-proof my room..hmmm

:*: Kerana Eryn Sayang Bakry :*:

:*:Dygta - Kerana Ku Sayang Kamu:*:- argh another Indon song, but pretty sweet..talking about being eclectic

Seandainya kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu

Ku tak akan pernah berpaling darimu
Walau kini kujauh darimu
'Kan selalu kunanti
Kerana ku sayang kamu

Hati ini selalu memanggil namamu, dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yang lain

Adakah rindu dihatimu, seperti rindu yang kurasa
Sanggupkah ku terus terlena, tanpamu di sisiku
Ku 'kan selalu menantimu

Seandainya kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu

Ku tak akan pernah berpaling darimu
Walau kini kujauh darimu
'Kan selalu kunanti
Kerana ku sayang kamu

-Eryn-

:*:Karma:*: - thanks to Luqman, lol.

:*:Cokelat - Karma:*: - dont favour Indon songs, but this pretty cool..lol..im addicted.

Sekian lama kita bersama
Ternyata kau juga, sama saja
Kau kira kupercaya semua
S'gala tipu daya, oh percuma

Kau buat sempurna, awalnya
Berakhir bencana

Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang, kelak ku kan datang
'tuk buktikan, satu balas 'kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan, pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

Akhirnya, usah sudah semua
Kudapat tertawa, bahagia

S'lalu tampak indah, awalnya
Berakhir bencana

Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang, kelak ku kan datang
'Tuk buktikan, satu balas 'kan kau jelas
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan, pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

Kau buat sempurna, awalnya
Berakhir bencana

Selamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang, kelak ku kan datang
'Tuk buktikan, satu balas 'kan kau jelas
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan, pahitnya terbuang
Sia-sia, memang kau pantas dapatkan

-Eryn-

:*:Keep on rolling, baby:*:

Yeah , me and comel share a same blog page now !
We're one crazy couple, jangan jealous yea ?
*the first point having this blog page was to show someone im way much better, lol.*
I'm the moderator and editor - i own this blog page, dengar tu Bakry, jangan notty notty press setting and delete everything. Sorry for the pink-ness. Lol.. pink is punk..so hell with it !
Probably update the template soon, not fair having everything pink for my baby.

Love ya boosuk,
Eryn

The Big Question

hey everyone,

yes, if u have been visiting this blog, then i dont think any introductions would be needed but heres one anyway.

Hi, my name is Bakry, aka The Comel... heh.. :P Dont kill me, Eryn :)

This is my first time blogging here, so forgive me, ey...

Some of u may have experienced this..and some havent,,but,, at least once in your life, u'll meet someone who will turn ur world around, makes ur heart aches when u dont get to talk to her, makes u feel like u are in the highest heaven when u think of em.. Yes, u know what i am talkin about ... its LOVE!! And just in case, you people still dont know yet, I am so in love with my girl, eryn :) we may have been thru some ups..and downs.. serious downs.. but we got thru it. if it doesnt work once, give it another go, with some changes and compromises...

The guilt and heartache may still be there but its there for a reason.. and thats to remind us on how bad things can turn out if we dont take care of each other... i love ya, eryn..so much..Oh yea, remember that 3-day "spa" treatment u had? hehe...wish we could do it again :) we'll figure somethin out ok?

She makes my world go round, and i wouldnt want it to be anyone else..

And in the end, it all comes to one question...like my mom said.. "Who's prettier? Hillary Duff or Lindsay Lohan?" Eryn and my mom says Hillary..but personally, i say Lindsay..

heheheeh...dun kill me!!!

I love you, boosuk...

You have a white lighter ? I have green light who keeps an eye on me - my boyfriend Bakry, love him loads ! 

:*:Let us all walk this way - Bakry's way:*:

You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say--you really got a way

Left ? Right ? U - turn ? There's time when you felt completely lost or devastated in life. A teenager like me, rebellious at times need extra care and need someone who actually could stand up with my attitude. It's not like i do have one - altho' someone told me once i got ' the attitude '..lol.. Imagine yea how my bf, give way to me sometimes. 22 and 18, yeah a lot of communication needed to understand each other, as we're in different zone. He's reaching the adulterous zone haha - i mean being adult and more matured. While me on the other hand, 18 trying to find herself and where she belongs. Being a teenage girl really bugs me - the only fun thing is the attention you received and shopping...lol.

You've got a way it seem
You gave me faith to find my dreams

Bakry - yea he let me do anything i want, well basicly anything good for myself. Let me be myself, altho' at times we argued about he's not understanding me. I took him for granted sometimes, he did helped me a lot through out our relationship, and im still feeling guilty for it.

You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

Still living life like a cinderella - i think im still living in teletubbies land. Where words and action were simple stuff and there's aint much guidelines for you to follow. Grow up Eryn. Yeah, grow up. Being matured is what its all about in a relationship. I'm stupid sometimes for telling him to leave me when he actually do really loves me so much.

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of

Views. Perspective in life. Dreams. Goals. Do you ever know or have thought about what you want in life ? What you want in a relationship ? Or how you want things to suit your salt. Right now all i can do is be happy, and think about what i have, my boyfriend, and people around me. We could never take things for granted - after all we only go through life once.

Eryn

My boyfriend had lecka lecka Chocolate - it looks good at first, reckoned this baby ! 

This is lecka lecka soya flavor - i had Amarena, something like this with raspberry. 

Guilt - it haunts.

Today i spend my day with my boyfriend, who else besides Bakry.
We had lecka lecka - yeah ever heard of them ? They supposely make this best "make it real ice cream" gelato thingy. I had Amarena flavour while my comel had the Chocolate flavour. I reckoned Lecka Lecka - i think it stands for lick a lick a ? Kinda thick ice cream - one scoop makes ya full . Situated at One Utama and Ikano. But you could try several ice cream parlor over there too, theres this New-Zy shop - those goat milk ice cream. Food wise - Ikano have nothing. Then we headed to house number 2, Athinahapan 4 Road - which is my bf's crib. Crib - yeah thats were we spend the time together most.. shit my bf gonna kill me for this.. and im not telling that we had sex..haha..*looks around for a black honda city - with this dude who looks like my comel*

For those who knew me , yeah you know i had this problem with my bf. But its over now - but we're still in post trauma condition.. Trust hard to earn, easy to break ya ? Promises, trust, two-timing..they come in this one big package covered with red ribbon waiting for you to unleash and let it messed you up then making you feel trap in a box.

Forgiveness - you could try my bf , his patient level is way too high - wonder what potion his mum gave him. I messed up big time, yet still he loves me and willing to spare me loads of chances. Yeah i do thanked him for that, wonder why a guy like him ever wanted a girl like me.

Gratitude - of course im overwhelmed with gratitude, he forgives me..well even tho he does..doesnt mean i could repeat the same mistakes over and over again - he cant picture me with him. I'm so thankful and happy at least something right ever happen to me..which is him.

But in the end, im still guilty for it - probably like what my bf said..post trauma thing.. im trying my best now making up to him for the lost i have done. Sayang my comel so much..thanks Bakry.

Note to self : Guilt haunts.

Eryn and Bakry,
*Eryn*

:*: It's over and done and they live happily ever after :*:

It's over and done, but the heartache lives on inside...

and who are the one you clinging to, instead of me tonight...

Break ups..post break up saga..you could actually do a movie for it...as for me, if my life is recorded in a movie, sure you'll end up sleeping like me after watching the first DVD of Puteri Gunung Ledang...*seriously damn pathetic show*... life - you could never be satisfied of it, yet everyday you'll ask for more..as for the one who are in love, you'll start thinking there's something missing in your relationship - just like what happen to me recently.

Fling 101 - never messed up with it, if you dont know what you really want when you get yourself involve in it. That is a lesson for life - courtesy of Justin *the singer from Pasar Malam Crew production..hah i still dont know how you get that job dude..hows Batu Caves so early in the morning..lol*.

Back to my story....yeah i've learnt a bunch of lessons from the past 3 days..eg : if he really loves you, nothing could separate you both apart.., if he trust you well enough - he's willing to give loads of chance to mend things up..

Is it because im 18 ? Naive, stupid, dumb, and pink...lol....While he is 22 - loving, caring, and warm....comel too..I'll try to change myself, it might take time - but its worth the waiting yea ?

I love my Bakry,

Eryn.

My BoYfRiEnD [ my comel to be exact ]

:*:It's been a while since i have someone to get down with:*:

Man im kind off bored today, my boyfriend balik kampung. So im sitting here, waiting for him to come back tonight. Stuck with the 4th and 5th crazy dudes i ever known, Chung and Ks all day today. Damn they cracked me up every seconds.

I'm having problem sleeping these days, argh slept at 7am woke up 11.30am today..a day before i slept at 5.30 am and woke up 11.15am..lol..how else crazy could i get ? But not to worry i got my boy Blink to accompany me and yeah we yack till morning !

Had quite a day yesterday - went out with my bf. Altho' we didnt do anything much, its good just to spend time with him. Man, how lucky am i ? I think i don't appreciated him well enough.. me and my triangle problem. Shhh Chung, Ks and another 3 guys *names are protected due to personal reasons*..its our pervert lil secret...lol..

Right now waiting for my duh-lings to come back home ! Miss you so much, argh cant take it anymore....Sorry if today's blog is kinda boring yet pathetic. It's been a while since i pen anything down, well theres more to come !

Thanks for my cliques, i aint that bored today : )

Eryn.

:*: A brand new year - a boring new day :*:

Top 5 New year resolutions :
1) Have a great life
2) Get a good college
3) Maintain good relationship with my family and friends
4) Be a good girlfriend to my bf - Bakry
5) Go for more shopping

Well you could plan a lot actually, but its up to you to make it real right ? I just wanna keep everything slow and steady, and take things for what it is. No matter what comes, i mean just be yourself.

For now i'll just sit and watch how my 2005 life gonna be. I hope its a blast. Just wanna have a good time, and reminisce the fond memories when i got old with whoever i end up with, and i hope its my comel Bakry.

Love ya comel.
Eryn