5.6.11

Wee...

5 days to Christmas,6 more days to Daddy's birthday, and 11 more days to New Year.

I can't wait for Christmas.

And I wonder...

Who am I kissing under the mistletoe this year for Christmas?

I hope its Him.

Daddy's birthday is a day after Christmas. I have no idea what to buy for him. Maybe a belated birthday lunch or dinner since my salary is due at the end of the month only...

*sob sob*

People gets happy usually when they think of money, but I cry each time I think of those litle blue, green, red, purple papers...

11 more days to New Year !

Meaning 11 more days to go thru my New Year resolution, not that I have any yet...

What have I achieved from last year resolution anyway?

Let us review:
- Be a good girlfriend to my "baby cakey".
*I broke up with him.

- Be a good friend to everyone.
*So far I think I'm a good friend.

- Be the best student in school or at least in my batch and score straight A's and get into my medical course and be a gynaecologist, so I get to lick my patients, ooh..that's just Hot, yet Kinky.
*I stop studying and working for now.

- Be a less rebellious and a good daughter especially to my mother.
*Not staying with parents, so I am being rebellious.

- Get more pretty.
(this one is impossible, unless I decided to do some surgeries and sculpt my high cheeks bone)
*I've cut and changed my hair style.

- Lose some weight, I'm freaking 51 kg now.
*I'm 50 now.

- Be more productive with my time.
*I'm working my ass off everyday.

- Get at least 80% in everything for school.
*Mentioned above, I've stop studying.

- Get my bloody driving license already.
*Still an illegal.

- Get out more and meet new people.
*Keep meeting new people everyday.

- Learn to bake and cook more for my baby.
*Broke up, so I guess no use of learning it.

- Manage my money well, my baby said I've been spending too much on unnecessary things especially on my phone.
*Still trying.

- Stay away from guys because they're evil and break your heart faster than you can say "Hey, I needed that!"
*They keep on breaking my heart no matter what.

Out of 13 resolutions written, 6 achievements have been made.

I guess thats ok.

Now I'm penning down my 2007 resolutions on an invisible piece of paper a.k.a my mind.

Will update later =)

Sidenotes:
Life is all about experience.

Don't you agree?

it's been a while

Since I last blogged.

6 days.

1 more day it's going to be a week.

Nothing much to blog about.

If I started to blog, then it would only be about me and you know who...

Met him today.

Does it matter if I met him today?

No.

But to certain people it does matter.

Busybody ain't them?

Well what to do.

It's the lifestyle of the rich and famous.

Apparently, these paparazzis aren't hired by anyone.

Rich and famous?

Not rich.

Just famous.

Tee-hee.

Sidenotes:
I miss my baby.

Starting this Sunday I'm working morning shift again.

I'm happy.

He knows why.

*Will update more when I have the urged to do so.

Toodles.

As on my way to work...

Everytime when I get on the taxi to work, the station that the driver tuned in is based on his ethnicity.

If it's an Indian driver it's Indian channel.
If it's a Malay then it's Malay channel.
If it's a Chinese then it's Chinese channel.

Taxi rides to work usually bored me to death.

But today it wasn't bad after all.

I didn't knew what channel the driver tuned in, but it actually played English songs.

Listened to Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On.

Eragon's OST.

A song that match my current mood at the moment.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


Sidenotes:
I hope we'll make it through. They'll wrong if they think they can bring us down because with you by my side I will fight and defend.

Watched a scary movie yesterday...

A very scary movie since I hate the main character in this movie.

Watched Cicakman (I hate lizards) with Reza yesterday.

Had to agree to give 10 thumbs up for the movie.

Simple story board. But I guess it's Malaysia first Comedy Superhero movie. I did fell asleep for the last 15 mins, because it was too cold. Nice ambience to snuggle.

Had super late dinner cum supper at McDonalds.

Had our regulars as usual.

But yesterday's dessert was way better than our regular McFlurry.

Tee-hee.

The songs for Cicakman OST wasn't bad neither. Jika Ku Tak Bangun Esok Pagi by Yusry really touches me.

So if I don't wake up tomorrow morning Sayang, this is for you.

Jika ku tak bangun esok pagi,
Sayangku kau jagalah diri,
Sentiasa ingatkan hati,
Dirimu amat ku cintai.
Andainya dihimpit kesusahan,
Sujud dan mohon pada tuhan,
Agar diberikan bimbingan,
Meniti hidup bersendirian.
Bila terasa sejuk,
Pejamkan mata,
Bayangkan dalam dakapanku,
Bila terasa rindu,
Pejamkan mata,
Kita bersua dalam lena.
Kalau ada yang sudi mengganti,
Sayang lepaskanlah ku pergi,
Kerana insan yang seistimewamu,
Berhak untuk dicinta dalam...

Yummy

Had lunch with Reza today. He had business appointment at Sentral Plaza, so while he's in the area he asked me out for lunch.

Had our regulars.

McNuggets,Fries,Coke.

But our regulars wasn't just any regulars.

It was Yummy in the end.

Tee-hee.

Finishing work at 5pm.

Going Mid Valley after work with Reza.

Need to buy toiletries, clothes for work and maybe catch a movie after that.

Feels like watching Cinta.



Claims to be a Story About Love.

I don't really dig Malay movies, but to a certain point I have to agree Malaysian movie nowadays are progressing up to a certain standard.

Not bad.

Like Sepet and Gubra for a start.

Mind starting to wonder off about lunch just now. Better end my post here for today. Will update when my mind is back on the ground.

Sidenotes:
Reza wants to watch Cicakman, just checked it isn't out in the cinemas yet.

I hate lizards just for your general information.

But I love today's lunch.

Wakey Wakey™

*Giggles*

Tattered remnants of longing

Yesterday was supposed to be a happy happy day.

But it wasn't a happy happy day.

Reza picked me up after work and decided to go dinner and watched movie.We ate dinner, but didn't watch any movie.

I was just out of mood yesterday.

He sent me off back early. Arrived home around 11pm.

Was supposed to go out with T' but he had something on, and I felt like staying home at the same time.

Had my shower.

Then I felt bored.

Dressed up wearing everything Pink.

Then walked around my apartment.

Chilled with few neighbourhood friends at mamak.

Told them I need to break free, becaused I was feeling a little fucked up lately. Came up with the idea of driving around and we did.

Went around Damansara, then off to Sunway with Pele'. Was trying to kill time by doing nothing.

By the time I knew it, it was 4.30am when I arrived home.

Slept.

Woke up today still feeling a little bit crazy.

Now at work.

As I was typing this, so many things playing in my head.

What he told me.
What I told him.
What is going on.
What is going to happen.

I wished this feeling is going to end.

I want things be back how it used to. I just want to put back the smile on him and let us shine like how it used to be.

I need Him to be the saviour of my tattered Soul.

This musing is never going to end for a few weeks.

Sidenotes:
I am trying to smile.

But it obvious I'm hurting.