Yesterday was supposed to be a happy happy day.
But it wasn't a happy happy day.
Reza picked me up after work and decided to go dinner and watched movie.We ate dinner, but didn't watch any movie.
I was just out of mood yesterday.
He sent me off back early. Arrived home around 11pm.
Was supposed to go out with T' but he had something on, and I felt like staying home at the same time.
Had my shower.
Then I felt bored.
Dressed up wearing everything Pink.
Then walked around my apartment.
Chilled with few neighbourhood friends at mamak.
Told them I need to break free, becaused I was feeling a little fucked up lately. Came up with the idea of driving around and we did.
Went around Damansara, then off to Sunway with Pele'. Was trying to kill time by doing nothing.
By the time I knew it, it was 4.30am when I arrived home.
Slept.
Woke up today still feeling a little bit crazy.
Now at work.
As I was typing this, so many things playing in my head.
What he told me.
What I told him.
What is going on.
What is going to happen.
I wished this feeling is going to end.
I want things be back how it used to. I just want to put back the smile on him and let us shine like how it used to be.
I need Him to be the saviour of my tattered Soul.
This musing is never going to end for a few weeks.
Sidenotes:
I am trying to smile.
But it obvious I'm hurting.
