Wednesday, November 22nd 2006.
8 days until my salary day.
Proudly to say I left RM 147.50 starting from tonight.
The worst part of the story is, this month I'm not getting full amount of what I'm expected to be paid monthly because I only work for 21 days this month.
That's if I don't planned to take leave again.
No.
I didn't skipped work if thats what you're thinking.
Meanwhile today at work was a slow and rainy day.
A lot of things going through my mind. Too many things, but so little time to rant about it. Was listening to a colleague's dilemma during lunch break today.
The usuals..
Girlfriend problem.
And it is just weird how I've been listening to everyone but I myself never talk about my own love drama.
I don't really have one to tell...
Ever since I broke up with Bakry, I've been on and off relationships.
Rebound relationships to be exact.
If you're one of my ex and you're reading this, it doesn't really sound as
Not that I've been using you guys.
Nor played with your feelings.
It is more like I just want to be wanted all the time.
Currently...
I'm not going out nor seeing anyone.
But I've been spending most of my free time or after work being with someone.
Just like today.
I want to spend more time with him until I was willing to bring clothes and shoes from home to change after work. Instead of going back home and go out to see him which takes up few hours and by the time I knew it I have to go back due to work the next day.
He wants Dunkin Donuts, I bought Dunkin Donuts.
He likes chocolate flavor donuts, I bought extra chocolate flavor donuts.
He feels like eating cake after dinner, I bought him cake after dinner.
Why am I willing to do anything for him?
Because my love for him is Blind.
Sidenotes:
First time ever I didn't mind not getting requited love as expected.
Because he is just different from others.
But all this de zeraing has to stop someday.
One day.
I'll find a reason to hate him.
But I know I won't hate him no matter how I've tried.
De zera de zera me.
