If this life gets any harder now.

"It ain't no nevermind
You got me by your side"
- Fly Away From Here by Aerosmith

This past 2 weeks seems to be a very bad week for me and everyone around me. 

+ Significant other down with fever, flu and cough.

+ Mishaps happens at my workplace.
+ Friend lost his GTI.
+ Money lost in transaction between 2 accounts.

+ Ex-bf drama.
+ Another friend lost his Perdana.

+ Me coughing blood (I am okay, now)

But out of all the things happened is the past 2 weeks, only one thing that caught my attention. Well short to say, touches my heart literally. It is sad to see someone dear to you sad as well. Also, it sucks knowing you tried your very best cheering them up but all attempts seem to fail when that person already closed him/herself for others to put the sunshine back in their life.

I am writing this because it's been 2 days I saw him down without a smile. Telling him it's not the end of the world seems to mean nothing. Telling him that he has nothing else to lose compared to others that living his/her life at stake not seem to be helping neither.

I know it's hard. 

I know it's not easy.

But you have others out there that loves you as well. Grieving over someone who don't appreciate us is a waste of time actually. Been there and done that.

For instance, I wasted months crying and hoping for Tinkerbell to puff some magic dust and turn me into a princess so that he loves me back.

Instead, I collect house-dust and lived my life on a gloomy note until the day I found you as my friend.

I still care for you although we went through some rough patch of a month back. 

I know you could do better than this. You held my hand and gave me something to hold on to when I was down, now I am here doing the same thing for you in return.

You told me you're okay.

I know you're not.

I miss the "you" that I met a while back.

The one who sings as if the world is his, the one who loves hearing me crapping about my daily mundane life, the one who loves his friends just how I love my friends too. 

The one who put the smile back on my face, and cheered me up during my time of need.

Now, it's your turn to Smile.

Sidenotes:

I've never thought it was possible to love someone too much, but maybe it is.