I'm in Love with someone I knew for 2 years but only meet each other for 4 times

My Raya this Year

Hey.

I'm back.

Yeah, from a week off from blogging.

This raya was different from others because I celebrated mine in KL instead of normal random balik kampung trip.

And yeah, I'll never run from my favourite colour.

This year baju kurung is Pink.

Shocking pink as Fariz said. Too shocking until you can spot me from 5 km away.

First raya, I went to Cheras. Then off to Fariz's open house. Had fun hanging out with him.

The rest of the week...

I was off shopping stuff for my new house. Bought a comforter set in Metrojaya Times Square.

Yes it is also pink.

Went watch movie John Tucker Must Die, very funny movie and enjoyed it.

Spend time with Warith, and friends like almost everyday...

Bought pillows and cushion from Ikea.

Accompanied friends to a Sheysha communion...

Then hang out with Fariz until 3am.

We then continued our conversation until 6.30am. Had him stayed over. Woke up around 12.30pm. Then after he went back, cleaned the house and continued sleeping until 6pm.

Conclusion is..
I had a very happy week.

You thought I wouldn't have survived the week right?

You're wrong.

I'm a soul survivor.

Sidenotes:
Sorry for the very random post. Was a bit lazy to blog tonight, so just a simple update. Will upload my raya pictures soon.

So much of being Contented

Now I'm back to the old Eryn.

But I'm going to put my problems aside, and be happy for Raya.

Can't wait to celebrate raya with my cliques.

Will blog when I am inspired to write, because I'm feeling stupid right now.

Sidenotes:
Because He said I was stupid and Naive. Thanks to Him, I'm going Under. So go ahead and scream at me. I'm so far away and won't be Broken again my dear.

I've got to Breathe.

Let me.

Send us Guidance from Above..

Why is it that we see violence everywhere? In the news, you hear stories of deaths resulting from domestic violence. From school bullies to global wars, hatred seems to dominate the modern world. So why is there so much violence?

First of all, I want to dispel all the popular causes of hate. One of the more popular explanations of violence is environmental influences. Culturally violence is tolerated, if not praised in modern society. Television is considered a big culprit in promoting brutality. There are lots of violent scenes in TV shows that involve fights and guns. Same reasons for movies and videogames.

My first thought was that this theory is a load of bullshit. There is no hard evidence stating that media violence is related to violent crimes. In fact, crime rates are lower in the past few years while videogames are becoming more violent.

A lot of experts also say people who have been spanked or beaten as kids usually turn out violent. These kids, who have been exposed to violent behavior, don't know how to release their emotions so they do it by what they know most: assaulting.

I first believed this theory was correct when I heard this, but then I started thinking about how dumb this is. A lot of kids who were beaten grow up to be successful adults. They have great careers and don't show signs of violent behavior. Also people don’t always express emotions through brutality. They find other outputs to these emotions in life, like painting or exercising.

After some thought, I realized that these explanations aren't wrong. They only say that kids have a tendency to become violent, therefore meaning it's not the root of the problem.

If you dig deeper, you'll see that all violent behavior results from one thing: insecurity. We can go as far to say that insecurity comes from fear.

Let's say that you're like most people and you fear spiders. If a tarantula crawls next to you, your first thought would probably be to eliminate that feeling of fear. Killing the spider would be one of the methods. Therefore you attack because you fear. You're scared, and you don’t like that feeling. Once you kill the spider, everything will be safe again.

The reason people act violently is to assert control. Without insecurity or fear, there would be no reason to act with violence. Violence seems correct when there’s fear but if you feel relatively safe, attacking would be pointless.

This is why nations wage war against each other. They're scared that they don't have control over their country. If you were a president of a country and another country developed this new technological device that could wipe out your nation, would you be scared? Hell yes. Your country and your people are at stake here..

Even if the other country doesn't wish to attack you, you react violently towards them. You might order your troops to scout the area and secure the threat. Nothing hostile, just some searching. However the other country might feel offended and retaliate by eliminating your troops. Both countries will then respond with more violent acts and pretty soon you got yourself a war.

I’ve seen fights similar to this. A friend of mine feels insecure when he sees another guy with his girlfriend. He doesn't feel that his girlfriend is in his control. He verbally attacks the other dude. The dude resists and says nothing is going on between him and the girl. My friend doesn't believe him and verbally attacks him again. The dude responds with insults. My friend then delivers a punch to the dude's face and a fight breaks out.

Responding with resistance and violent acts will never solve the issue. Fighting back in situations like these will only escalate the violence. The only way to end fights is to forget them. Learn the classic phrase, "Forgive and Forget". So what if that guy insulted you or your nation gets bombed into dust? Just forget about it and move on. Sure it may seem bad right now but in the future your enemies will see how wrong they were and will ask you to forgive them. In the long term, forgiving will solve any outbreak between different parties.

Being more aware of the situation and eliminating fear is key to stopping the violence. The next time you get punched in the face (hopefully never), stop and think about what you're going to do. If you are more conscious than your opponent, you would not retaliate but instead you would examine your choices. Then you will realize that fighting is pointless because you don’t fear anything and you'll just walk away.

If everyone in the world were more aware of their actions, violence wouldn't have any place in society.

A world without violence is possible if everyone started paying attention to their choices.

I did have Apricot Brandy but...

But I got a little off-hand with liquor and I was drunk.

No. We didn't spend our night at Frangipani as suggested.

Here are few pics of us, before I was drunk.



Me and May, my bestfriend since I was in Junior One in Sri Inai


Me, May and birthday girl Wenz


Group pic of us at Nerovivo

Then we went to a bar beside Frangipani, Hemingways. Thats the minute I lost control of myself, I had Apricot Brandy and got tipsy. Then I ordered Strawberry Margharita. Before I knew it I was drunk.

I spoiled the after-party.

Bad girl Eryn.

Before I was drunk:

*Met Aishah earlier during the day and went Halloween shopping, and watched Devil Wears Prada.

*Break my fast with May at Shakeys. Had the usual Pasta set.

*Went to watch a play at ISKL.

Sidenotes:
Sorry Wenz for being a bit vulgar when I was drunk.

:*: I shall purify myself in Clorox :*:

NO.

I'm not purifying myself in Fresh Scent Clorox because I stink.

It's because I just had too much bullshits lately. Just when I thought I had everything. Apparently I didn't.

How does it feel to be used?

By someone you're actually close with?

Some may say that for a 19 year old girl to think like a 29 year old woman, it would be too fast. But what's wrong with it? Mainly because I am tired and do not wish to have anymore hurts in life. It kind of makes me tired and sick after having so many times of 'coincidence' of these kind of things.

I'm just too pissed off.

Sidenotes:
Might drink some Clorox to detoxify myself too.

:*: I need a Drink :*:

The last time I went to Frangipani was with my relatives for a dinner.



But this Friday I want to go there to get drunk.



Sidenotes:
Because I need a drink.

:*: Condolences to Nal's Dad :*:

I just got back from Kuala Lumpur Hospital, Zainal's dad passed away at 7.45pm. I received the message on the way back to the office after breaking my fast at home.

I would like to express my condolences to his family and relatives. May his dad rest in peace.

Sidenotes:
"Don't let your life pass you by, Weep not for the Memories"

:*: Happy Birthday My Babes :*:

This week is a very Happy Birthday week.

Let us start with:

1.
Happy Birthday to Romp today (09 October 2006), you're finally 19. Hope you had a great one dear

2.
Happy 23rd Birthday to my colleague Zainal tomorrow (10 October 2006), you old chap.


3.
Happy Birthday next to my bestfriend Tareeq (11 October 2006), you're finally 17. Thanks for always being there for me. Love you loads.

Sidenotes:
I can't wait to be 20.

:*: Milo Tin Car :*:

As posted on May's blog September 23, 2006 (I guest blog over there):

My boss just got his new Savvy yesterday. I'm not an avid fan of national cars, but after the second day riding it. I have to say it is not bad for a national car.

Hehe..my boss said it is because he is driving it.

Yes I was never an avid fan of national cars.

Today's incident just made my statement much more clearer.

As blogged before too on my blog December 22, 2005:

Our local companies that seem to take make cars as a pure for-profit matter… perhaps you could call it cars with no 'spirit' or 'passion'...

Very, very true.

Guess you guys still don't get the point of me blogging this.

As claimed, Savvy was said to be Built Tougher Than You Think.



It's a total Bullshit.

Today, we met an accident somewhere near SMK Assunta junction. Well I wasn't in the car because we went with 2 cars. I was in the another car with my colleague tailing Him.

Here's a glimpse of the little drama we had:

Me: (Switching the radio station which currently playing Tokyo Drift)
Azim: Let's drift wey..

*Bang*

Azim: I already assume he won't make it.
Me: Oh My God. Accident?

*Everybody got down from their respective Cars*

Me: Oh my baby.
Azim: (Shakes his head and again saying..) I knew he wouldn't make it.



Well basically the side of the car dented badly, but we forgot to take a pic of it.



And this is the car that got hit.

Picture taken on the way to the workshop.

As you can see nothing happened to it. Just a few cat-scratch marks.

And my baby Savvy got dented like bad. As if it is made from Milo Tin.

Recalling again the advertisement...

Built Tougher Than You Think.

Probably they meant instead of using Coke cans they used Milo tins.

Price to pay:
RM 300 for the dude's back light and bumper.
RM 700 for my baby's front and light.

The car is with the mechanic for 2 days or so.

Till then my Milo tin car..

We will miss you.

Sidenotes:
4752 and 3599 are number to buy. But it's fasting month. I don't gamble. Haha.