I think that is my problem. I hate emotions. All of them. No doubt. I have told myself that any rational action must be completely void of any emotion, when really, the opposite is true. Some kind of emotion is necessary.
I should not be the basis, but should be present.
I learned a long time ago, that emotions lie. That is true. Emotions can make you think that something is true when it isn't. If you let them run you, then you will never be consistant. Of course, emotions can also tell the truth. Like if you are passionate about something, and you feel strongly about what you beilieve it invokes a responsible emotional response.
The problem is, the lies and the truth can be both positive and negative emotions. It requires rational thinking to differentiate. Of course rational thinking that is void of emotion is the other extreme. Reason, when dealing with emotional people, often does not make sense. So there is a fine line between what is proper emotion to behave, and times to be reserved.
I have been really introspective recently.
Why?
I do not know.
Perhaps what someone told me made me think more about myself. Oh well...
I guess that what I do is try to tell myself that my emotions don't exist, or that they are always not the right answer. I guess this is what is called suppressing. Of course this leads to outbursts. Then, I feel bad about letting my emotions control me, so I just end up being frustrated, which I think makes me worse.
Also, I tend to when I do express myself emotionally, people don't want to hear it or they start laughing. Apparently when I express myself, it never seems a very positive outcome.
I don't really have much more to say. But, I wish someone would show up at my door, and want to hang out.
So I could be around someone.
