I haven't been blogging much due to my busy lifestyle lately. Tired and lack of fun time, but it's good since I could get some time off diverting my mind doing something else rather than dwelling myself to tears for the past couple of months. However, through the midst of "busy-ness", I still have the time off to think of everything that's been happening lately in my life.
It's in our nature to forget what matters.
As I sat down yesterday, thinking of the problem I've been having, I realized that I actually contributed to the problem as well for the past couple of months. Sometimes when we thought we were doing the right thing for the benefit of everyone, it's actually tearing up others without realizing it. I sent a text message yesterday to that someone that I was having problem with, saying I was sorry and after everything thats been going on I realized that it's my fault as well.
That someone didn't reply to my apology instead divert the "text-conversation" telling me about the back pain that someone is suffering after a long day of community project at school. Then told me "can we talk about this later?"
Time and again, I've said to that someone. I'll give that someone all the time that someone need in this world. I just wished that someone would accept my apology and slowly we sort things out together. I do think that someone is slowly accepting the whole forgiving-reconcile process because that someone has been nice to me lately. Probably because I was not being pushy for answers as I did all these while, and I only replied in happy-tone sentences when that someone replied to my questions.
I guess sometimes we do have to mellow down and be someone that the other person wants us to be in hoping to get something good in return. Although it hurts when things are not aligned as usual, but at least we're not screaming, shouting and yelling at each other like how it's been for the couple of weeks. No tears rolling neither for me for the past couple of days.
I don't believe in this statement before given by Q few weeks back, but I guessed time do heals all wounds. The bigger the wound, the longer time we need. Sadly, wound of the heart is not transpirable for the eyes to see, so I don't know how long is the length of time we need to be in the chapter of happy ending. But since I am busy with my life lately, I guess waiting wouldn't hurt me much after all.
Okay. Enough of self-rambling. Random thoughts that I have today when I wake up this morning however were consists of "Sushi, PES 2009, Secret Recipe Cheese Cake, Gatorade, Extra-Joss, Oreo, Sausage and Cheese Takoyaki, and the number 13-5005 and 2978".
Go figure.
Short notes:
But when it comes to you, I can't decide. It's only a mater of time.
