The Big Question

hey everyone,

yes, if u have been visiting this blog, then i dont think any introductions would be needed but heres one anyway.

Hi, my name is Bakry, aka The Comel... heh.. :P Dont kill me, Eryn :)

This is my first time blogging here, so forgive me, ey...

Some of u may have experienced this..and some havent,,but,, at least once in your life, u'll meet someone who will turn ur world around, makes ur heart aches when u dont get to talk to her, makes u feel like u are in the highest heaven when u think of em.. Yes, u know what i am talkin about ... its LOVE!! And just in case, you people still dont know yet, I am so in love with my girl, eryn :) we may have been thru some ups..and downs.. serious downs.. but we got thru it. if it doesnt work once, give it another go, with some changes and compromises...

The guilt and heartache may still be there but its there for a reason.. and thats to remind us on how bad things can turn out if we dont take care of each other... i love ya, eryn..so much..Oh yea, remember that 3-day "spa" treatment u had? hehe...wish we could do it again :) we'll figure somethin out ok?

She makes my world go round, and i wouldnt want it to be anyone else..

And in the end, it all comes to one question...like my mom said.. "Who's prettier? Hillary Duff or Lindsay Lohan?" Eryn and my mom says Hillary..but personally, i say Lindsay..

heheheeh...dun kill me!!!

I love you, boosuk...

You have a white lighter ? I have green light who keeps an eye on me - my boyfriend Bakry, love him loads ! 

:*:Let us all walk this way - Bakry's way:*:

You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say--you really got a way

Left ? Right ? U - turn ? There's time when you felt completely lost or devastated in life. A teenager like me, rebellious at times need extra care and need someone who actually could stand up with my attitude. It's not like i do have one - altho' someone told me once i got ' the attitude '..lol.. Imagine yea how my bf, give way to me sometimes. 22 and 18, yeah a lot of communication needed to understand each other, as we're in different zone. He's reaching the adulterous zone haha - i mean being adult and more matured. While me on the other hand, 18 trying to find herself and where she belongs. Being a teenage girl really bugs me - the only fun thing is the attention you received and shopping...lol.

You've got a way it seem
You gave me faith to find my dreams

Bakry - yea he let me do anything i want, well basicly anything good for myself. Let me be myself, altho' at times we argued about he's not understanding me. I took him for granted sometimes, he did helped me a lot through out our relationship, and im still feeling guilty for it.

You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me

Still living life like a cinderella - i think im still living in teletubbies land. Where words and action were simple stuff and there's aint much guidelines for you to follow. Grow up Eryn. Yeah, grow up. Being matured is what its all about in a relationship. I'm stupid sometimes for telling him to leave me when he actually do really loves me so much.

It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what love's made of

Views. Perspective in life. Dreams. Goals. Do you ever know or have thought about what you want in life ? What you want in a relationship ? Or how you want things to suit your salt. Right now all i can do is be happy, and think about what i have, my boyfriend, and people around me. We could never take things for granted - after all we only go through life once.

Eryn

My boyfriend had lecka lecka Chocolate - it looks good at first, reckoned this baby ! 

This is lecka lecka soya flavor - i had Amarena, something like this with raspberry. 

Guilt - it haunts.

Today i spend my day with my boyfriend, who else besides Bakry.
We had lecka lecka - yeah ever heard of them ? They supposely make this best "make it real ice cream" gelato thingy. I had Amarena flavour while my comel had the Chocolate flavour. I reckoned Lecka Lecka - i think it stands for lick a lick a ? Kinda thick ice cream - one scoop makes ya full . Situated at One Utama and Ikano. But you could try several ice cream parlor over there too, theres this New-Zy shop - those goat milk ice cream. Food wise - Ikano have nothing. Then we headed to house number 2, Athinahapan 4 Road - which is my bf's crib. Crib - yeah thats were we spend the time together most.. shit my bf gonna kill me for this.. and im not telling that we had sex..haha..*looks around for a black honda city - with this dude who looks like my comel*

For those who knew me , yeah you know i had this problem with my bf. But its over now - but we're still in post trauma condition.. Trust hard to earn, easy to break ya ? Promises, trust, two-timing..they come in this one big package covered with red ribbon waiting for you to unleash and let it messed you up then making you feel trap in a box.

Forgiveness - you could try my bf , his patient level is way too high - wonder what potion his mum gave him. I messed up big time, yet still he loves me and willing to spare me loads of chances. Yeah i do thanked him for that, wonder why a guy like him ever wanted a girl like me.

Gratitude - of course im overwhelmed with gratitude, he forgives me..well even tho he does..doesnt mean i could repeat the same mistakes over and over again - he cant picture me with him. I'm so thankful and happy at least something right ever happen to me..which is him.

But in the end, im still guilty for it - probably like what my bf said..post trauma thing.. im trying my best now making up to him for the lost i have done. Sayang my comel so much..thanks Bakry.

Note to self : Guilt haunts.

Eryn and Bakry,
*Eryn*

:*: It's over and done and they live happily ever after :*:

It's over and done, but the heartache lives on inside...

and who are the one you clinging to, instead of me tonight...

Break ups..post break up saga..you could actually do a movie for it...as for me, if my life is recorded in a movie, sure you'll end up sleeping like me after watching the first DVD of Puteri Gunung Ledang...*seriously damn pathetic show*... life - you could never be satisfied of it, yet everyday you'll ask for more..as for the one who are in love, you'll start thinking there's something missing in your relationship - just like what happen to me recently.

Fling 101 - never messed up with it, if you dont know what you really want when you get yourself involve in it. That is a lesson for life - courtesy of Justin *the singer from Pasar Malam Crew production..hah i still dont know how you get that job dude..hows Batu Caves so early in the morning..lol*.

Back to my story....yeah i've learnt a bunch of lessons from the past 3 days..eg : if he really loves you, nothing could separate you both apart.., if he trust you well enough - he's willing to give loads of chance to mend things up..

Is it because im 18 ? Naive, stupid, dumb, and pink...lol....While he is 22 - loving, caring, and warm....comel too..I'll try to change myself, it might take time - but its worth the waiting yea ?

I love my Bakry,

Eryn.

My BoYfRiEnD [ my comel to be exact ]

:*:It's been a while since i have someone to get down with:*:

Man im kind off bored today, my boyfriend balik kampung. So im sitting here, waiting for him to come back tonight. Stuck with the 4th and 5th crazy dudes i ever known, Chung and Ks all day today. Damn they cracked me up every seconds.

I'm having problem sleeping these days, argh slept at 7am woke up 11.30am today..a day before i slept at 5.30 am and woke up 11.15am..lol..how else crazy could i get ? But not to worry i got my boy Blink to accompany me and yeah we yack till morning !

Had quite a day yesterday - went out with my bf. Altho' we didnt do anything much, its good just to spend time with him. Man, how lucky am i ? I think i don't appreciated him well enough.. me and my triangle problem. Shhh Chung, Ks and another 3 guys *names are protected due to personal reasons*..its our pervert lil secret...lol..

Right now waiting for my duh-lings to come back home ! Miss you so much, argh cant take it anymore....Sorry if today's blog is kinda boring yet pathetic. It's been a while since i pen anything down, well theres more to come !

Thanks for my cliques, i aint that bored today : )

Eryn.

:*: A brand new year - a boring new day :*:

Top 5 New year resolutions :
1) Have a great life
2) Get a good college
3) Maintain good relationship with my family and friends
4) Be a good girlfriend to my bf - Bakry
5) Go for more shopping

Well you could plan a lot actually, but its up to you to make it real right ? I just wanna keep everything slow and steady, and take things for what it is. No matter what comes, i mean just be yourself.

For now i'll just sit and watch how my 2005 life gonna be. I hope its a blast. Just wanna have a good time, and reminisce the fond memories when i got old with whoever i end up with, and i hope its my comel Bakry.

Love ya comel.
Eryn