Surviving on my last RM147.50

Wednesday, November 22nd 2006.

8 days until my salary day.

Proudly to say I left RM 147.50 starting from tonight.

The worst part of the story is, this month I'm not getting full amount of what I'm expected to be paid monthly because I only work for 21 days this month.

That's if I don't planned to take leave again.

No.

I didn't skipped work if thats what you're thinking.

Meanwhile today at work was a slow and rainy day.

A lot of things going through my mind. Too many things, but so little time to rant about it. Was listening to a colleague's dilemma during lunch break today.

The usuals..

Girlfriend problem.

And it is just weird how I've been listening to everyone but I myself never talk about my own love drama.

I don't really have one to tell...

Ever since I broke up with Bakry, I've been on and off relationships.

Rebound relationships to be exact.

If you're one of my ex and you're reading this, it doesn't really sound as cruel evil bad as what you're thinking.

Not that I've been using you guys.

Nor played with your feelings.

It is more like I just want to be wanted all the time.

Currently...

I'm not going out nor seeing anyone.

But I've been spending most of my free time or after work being with someone.

Just like today.

I want to spend more time with him until I was willing to bring clothes and shoes from home to change after work. Instead of going back home and go out to see him which takes up few hours and by the time I knew it I have to go back due to work the next day.

He wants Dunkin Donuts, I bought Dunkin Donuts.

He likes chocolate flavor donuts, I bought extra chocolate flavor donuts.

He feels like eating cake after dinner, I bought him cake after dinner.

Why am I willing to do anything for him?

Because my love for him is Blind.

Sidenotes:
First time ever I didn't mind not getting requited love as expected.

Because he is just different from others.

But all this de zeraing has to stop someday.

One day.

I'll find a reason to hate him.

But I know I won't hate him no matter how I've tried.

De zera de zera me.

i hate chillies.

Ugh, I had fried rice for breakfast cum lunch just now. It was spicy and I'm alergic to spicy food. Tend to purge every single bit of me although theres nothing to be wasted anymore.

I'm in a Dilemma.

No.

Not becaused of eating chillies, or having visions of the toilet bowl.

My mind is circling around something.

Something I'm not certain about.

Someone please feed me a remedy for an unstable heart.

I couldn't bear this feeling anymore.

I want Him to want Me.

He knows I love him.

It shows.

Sidenotes:
Being with Him makes me Happy.

Doesn't he want to see me happy all the time?

De Zera de Zera me.

De Zera De Zera me.

I was off from work today.

No, not becaused I was lazy.

Just tired.

Went to Tmn. Tun to see Reza after work, and decided to watch movie at One Utama.

It wasn't even planned.

Wanted to watch Death Note the 10.00pm show, but tickets was sold out. So we bought the 12.40am show.

To kill the time to wait for the show to start, as I haven't had my dinner yet, we decided to go to Mc Donalds at Centrepoint.

Me had my regular McD Chicken Porridge, Reza with his regular Chicke Mc Nuggets. I ordered our favourite M&M's McFlurry as dessert.

Then we hang out till 12.30am...

Off to the cinema.


I see my own Kira in Him.

Movie wasn't bad. Enjoyed the whole show. Although I thought I wouldn't enjoyed it. Agreed to watch at first as Reza wanted to watch it.

But in the end I have to say it wasn't a bad movie after all.

Didn't knew it was from an anime. Half way during the movie, when I realised its already 2.40am I called my manager. Told him I wasn't feeling well and not coming to work tomorrow. Actually it's more like I know I won't wake up the next day, or even if I did go to work I couldn't concentrate due to lack of sleep. Haven't been sleeping properly for the past 4 days, as I stated in my previous posts.

After movie, which ended around 3am or so we went back to the office.

Hang out till 5.40am, and went back home.

Slept till 1.30pm or so, woke up due to phone call.

Private Number.
Calling.

Reza asked am I still sleeping. Told him yeah I was, till he called. Snuggled in my bed while talking to him. Asked whether I'm meeting him today, told him I would but in the evening.

Guess what.

After I hung up, I went back to bed and continued sleeping until 5.30pm.

I was like so lazy to get up, but I did in the end.

Took a bath, and got ready to go dinner with him.

But when I arrived, he was feeling tired and sleeping. So I went dinner on my own at Shakey's Pizza which is just few steps away from his office and bought a regular pizza for him to eat.

And here I am blogging this.

Sidenotes:
It's a very De Zera De Zera week.

He finally asked me what's De Zera means.

You know what it means.

Ciplak The Movie

Ciplak is finally coming out on November 23rd at GSC International Screens in Mid Valley, 1 Utama and Gurney Plaza (Penang, although only a week after KL) for a minimum run of two weeks.

And to celebrate, they're holding a launch party at Laundry (the Curve) on Nov 22nd, starting at 8pm with a video presentation of the making of Ciplak and performances by Y2k, Triple 6 Poser, Dragon Red and Soft Touch. Entry is free, hope to see you guys there.

For more info on Ciplak, check out
Ciplak the Movie


Sidenotes:
And I'm off on November 22nd. I think I'm going. Watched the trailer, not bad for a start.

Or at least...

I think.

Or at least I think so that I'm ok.

For the past 4 days I've been sleeping late. After 4.30am only I would be asleep nowadays.Thank god I'm working afternoon shifts for this week.

Yesterday I thought that I would get some sleep. Or at least sleep early.

Came back around 11.30pm. Ate dinner and went to bed straight.

Was sleeping till...

1.20am.

Syakir called asking about work tomorrow, whether there's a lot of assignments since he's been off work for 2 days due to fever.

I didn't remember what he actually asked me, but I think I've answered Yes to each question.

Wanted to place back the phone at the charger.

Then...

1.30am.

Private Number
Calling.

It was Reza.

"Hello"
"Yes, what do you want?"
"Asleep?"
"Yes".."Erm, no. Sort of..why?"
"I'm on the way to your place, with Hamiz, Aizat and friend"
"To have dinner"
"Ok.."
"Call me when you're here then, I'm afraid I'll fell asleep.."
"Just estimate yourself 10 mins we will be there.."
"Just call me.."

5 mins later.

"We're here"
"Yes,yes I'll be down"

And all the sudden my tummy aches. Had to use the toilet. Washed up. Changed to long pants, as it was cold outside.

When I arrived, they finished eating.

Great.

You made me get up from the bed in wee hours in the morning, and you didn't wait for me to eat dinner?

Had my regular, Iced Milo.

Chit-chatted till 4am.

And here I am at work today. Not much work today.

Planned to take a leave on Wednesday next week, watching movie with Reza and friends. He is so excited to watch Death Note.

Tomorrow I'm working morning shift. Argh, meaning have to be up by 5.30am. Must sleep early tonight. Or at least try to.

Sidenotes:
I'm happy or at least I think I am. I felt a little low though for 5 mins thinking of some monkey.

Who cares?

I do but it doesn't matter and I don't give a damn about him anymore. Because I have my babes to cheer me up.

No matter what, I'll always be •°¤*(¯`°º°Mîss ¤ Èrýñ De Zera°º°´¯)*¤°•.

Or at least I think I am...

For what its Worth

Arrived work like 15 mins ago.

Had a very happy night yesterday, although I didn't actually do anything.

Straight after work went back home, took a shower and off to Taman Tun to see Reza at his myT office. Bought those little Dunkin donuts as snack for us to eat.

Chit-chatted.

The office looks a bit bigger and cleaner. Haha. They rearranged the sittings of the desks and stuff. I kind off miss the atmosphere of being there. Those were the days when I was working there.

Then we're off to the Curve, Mutiara Damansara. Wanted to watch Death Note, but tickets were sold out, and only left was front row seats.

We didn't think its worth it to get your neck stretch for a couple of bucks. So we didn't watch the movie.

Then thought of having our dinner there, but end up chilling at My News Cafe. That cafe sure made us stunt for 5 mins by looking at the menu.

A can of Coke for RM 4.00.

Gulp.

I had a Strawberry smoothie and it was Yummy. Drinks was on me.

Then we're off to Kelana Jaya, my house. Had dinner at Maju's. We had our regular fried mee. Dinner was on Reza. Chit-chatted till 2am about stuff that doesn't even got to do with us.

He sent me back to my apartment, and I immediately dozed off as I was tired.

Woke up this morning. But was a bit reluctant to go to work today.

And here I am now, at work.

*Smiles*

Sidenotes:
He always told me "Action speaks louder than words Eryn".

I wonder what your actions are telling me.

Doesn't matter.

Just to let you know that I love every single bit of your Action.

I'm a Stalker

Yes.

I am a stalker.

Was at work, and someone told me that he's at KL Sentral to pick up a his friend, which happens to be a Her.

No. I'm not jealous.

Took a break and told my colleague I was going to buy chocolate to eat.

But I went out just to peek at him. Called him and said, "Hey, I saw you."

"Turn to your Right"

Chatted on the phone, looking at each other while being divided by a pedestrian crossing.

He's so close, yet I still can't have him.

Sidenote:
Very very happy, that I get to catch a glimpse of you mi amor.


Update Nov 16th 2006:
I don't want to hate you, but you made me to.

It's a Quickie

Fariz told me that he's on the way to cyber cafe to do some work and to read my blog too.

But I don't have anything to update in the mean time. Now at work updating the company's account.

So I'm posting this quickie to say Have a Nice Day babe.

Sidenotes:
When are we going to do our practical Cikgu?

Hehe.

I am pissed but yet I have to live to the Hilt !

For no reason I'm so pissed.

I saw Warith and S at KL Sentral just now on my lunch break with Syakir.

And I'm so pissed that I didn't walked out to them and say hello. But I did smsed them and said I saw them at Adidas store.

But I didn't get any reply.

And it is so Wrong for not replying Miss Eryn's sms.

Cause that means you're Ignoring me.

On the sidenotes:
Someone ex viewed my Friendster profile. I'm pissed for no reason cause of that. Not that I'm her rival or anything. Haha.

Right now, I'm abusing my privilege at my working place to blog this.

Naughty Eryn.

I'm in Love with someone I knew for 2 years but only meet each other for 4 times