As on my way to work...

Everytime when I get on the taxi to work, the station that the driver tuned in is based on his ethnicity.

If it's an Indian driver it's Indian channel.
If it's a Malay then it's Malay channel.
If it's a Chinese then it's Chinese channel.

Taxi rides to work usually bored me to death.

But today it wasn't bad after all.

I didn't knew what channel the driver tuned in, but it actually played English songs.

Listened to Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On.

Eragon's OST.

A song that match my current mood at the moment.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


Sidenotes:
I hope we'll make it through. They'll wrong if they think they can bring us down because with you by my side I will fight and defend.

Watched a scary movie yesterday...

A very scary movie since I hate the main character in this movie.

Watched Cicakman (I hate lizards) with Reza yesterday.

Had to agree to give 10 thumbs up for the movie.

Simple story board. But I guess it's Malaysia first Comedy Superhero movie. I did fell asleep for the last 15 mins, because it was too cold. Nice ambience to snuggle.

Had super late dinner cum supper at McDonalds.

Had our regulars as usual.

But yesterday's dessert was way better than our regular McFlurry.

Tee-hee.

The songs for Cicakman OST wasn't bad neither. Jika Ku Tak Bangun Esok Pagi by Yusry really touches me.

So if I don't wake up tomorrow morning Sayang, this is for you.

Jika ku tak bangun esok pagi,
Sayangku kau jagalah diri,
Sentiasa ingatkan hati,
Dirimu amat ku cintai.
Andainya dihimpit kesusahan,
Sujud dan mohon pada tuhan,
Agar diberikan bimbingan,
Meniti hidup bersendirian.
Bila terasa sejuk,
Pejamkan mata,
Bayangkan dalam dakapanku,
Bila terasa rindu,
Pejamkan mata,
Kita bersua dalam lena.
Kalau ada yang sudi mengganti,
Sayang lepaskanlah ku pergi,
Kerana insan yang seistimewamu,
Berhak untuk dicinta dalam...

Yummy

Had lunch with Reza today. He had business appointment at Sentral Plaza, so while he's in the area he asked me out for lunch.

Had our regulars.

McNuggets,Fries,Coke.

But our regulars wasn't just any regulars.

It was Yummy in the end.

Tee-hee.

Finishing work at 5pm.

Going Mid Valley after work with Reza.

Need to buy toiletries, clothes for work and maybe catch a movie after that.

Feels like watching Cinta.



Claims to be a Story About Love.

I don't really dig Malay movies, but to a certain point I have to agree Malaysian movie nowadays are progressing up to a certain standard.

Not bad.

Like Sepet and Gubra for a start.

Mind starting to wonder off about lunch just now. Better end my post here for today. Will update when my mind is back on the ground.

Sidenotes:
Reza wants to watch Cicakman, just checked it isn't out in the cinemas yet.

I hate lizards just for your general information.

But I love today's lunch.

Wakey Wakey™

*Giggles*

Tattered remnants of longing

Yesterday was supposed to be a happy happy day.

But it wasn't a happy happy day.

Reza picked me up after work and decided to go dinner and watched movie.We ate dinner, but didn't watch any movie.

I was just out of mood yesterday.

He sent me off back early. Arrived home around 11pm.

Was supposed to go out with T' but he had something on, and I felt like staying home at the same time.

Had my shower.

Then I felt bored.

Dressed up wearing everything Pink.

Then walked around my apartment.

Chilled with few neighbourhood friends at mamak.

Told them I need to break free, becaused I was feeling a little fucked up lately. Came up with the idea of driving around and we did.

Went around Damansara, then off to Sunway with Pele'. Was trying to kill time by doing nothing.

By the time I knew it, it was 4.30am when I arrived home.

Slept.

Woke up today still feeling a little bit crazy.

Now at work.

As I was typing this, so many things playing in my head.

What he told me.
What I told him.
What is going on.
What is going to happen.

I wished this feeling is going to end.

I want things be back how it used to. I just want to put back the smile on him and let us shine like how it used to be.

I need Him to be the saviour of my tattered Soul.

This musing is never going to end for a few weeks.

Sidenotes:
I am trying to smile.

But it obvious I'm hurting.

Semi-hiatus for a few days

Had my period yesterday.

But today it stops. Too stress until it effects my body.

Hope you guys are happy now.

That I'm emotionally unstable.

This blog will be on semi-hiatus for a few days. Even me and my baby have to put everything on semi-hiatus.

Till then.

Sidenotes:
Warm snuggle and kisses from my baby should help.

I miss Him.

When someone said count your blessings now, just do it ok?

Short talk:
"If someone said three years from now, you'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch them out for you baby, cause they're all wrong..."

It's up to me to be with Him or not Ok?

I love Him.

I Do.

Sidenotes:
No emotional talk for today. I've decided whatever happens between me and him...

Stays between me and Him.

You guys don't have the right to put a Full Stop on me about Him.

December mission

Me and my colleagues busy calculating this month salary.


*(Insert calculator tapping sound here)

For the gazillion time I've tap the calculator still the same amount appearred on the calculator screen.

Total gross profit for this month is RM800.

So I did some monthly bill calculation that I need to pay for December.

RM 260.00 for house deposit + RM 110.00 for room rental + RM 16.15 for electric and water bill
=RM 386.15

Money left to be spend for the whole month of December = RM 413.85

Salary is given out every 2nd of the month.

Wee.

Can't wait.

Sidenotes:
Both of my colleagues Syakir and Lin, made a bet with me to work this whole month of December without taking a leave. I've told them that's what I was planning to do. Because once my financial is stable starting from the month of December, I'll be ok I guess. They promised me they'll buy me pizza, and a Guess handbag. Haha.

RM 1240.

We'll see.

i don't know what is it called...

Love?

Don't know.

And I'm tired of thinking of it. Or figuring it out. But I'm just happy at where I stand and where we are now.

Enough of this emotional discussion. I'll go mad if I keep on talking about it.

Back to money talks.

RM134.00 yesterday.

Current balance Friday, November 24, 2006 (8.42am):
RM110.30

Besides love, another thing that makes me go mad is Money.


Wished had bigger picture of this, it depicts today's post so well. 2 in 1. Love and Money talk.

Money, money, money.

Why does our lives got to revolve around those green, red, blue papers?

God never tell us to live our life around money.

We the ones who created the theory.

Ok enough of money talk, becaused I'm starting to feel a little tingly in my brain...

Now it is back to Eryn's talk.

I'm sick today. Runny nose, cough, fever. The whole happy-meal package. Haven't eat any medicine yet. I believe in self-healing...

Haha.

Medicines = Money = Cash flow

Sheesh.

I'm starting to talk about money usage just like Him. I think I've caught the De Zera syndrome.

*Giggles*

Jack messaged me on Myspace.

Date: Nov 23 2006 6:47 PM
Subject: RE: boo =(
Body:
Went through your blog and just to let you know, you'll make a great writer one day.

Hehe. I've always got this kind of message by everyone who reads my blog.

No, I'm not being Vain.

Was just a little Flattered.

Tee-hee.

Sidenotes:
Quoted from Reza's Myspace...

"Would the Boy I was be proud of the Man I am?

I know I'm proud to know someone with visions like you babe.

Thirteen Fifty

Thirteen fifty.

That's the amount I've spent for today. Meaning I still have RM134.00 and 1 week to survive still. It's kinda impressive actually and I'm proud of myself that I managed to control the usage of my money today.

How did I do it?

Because mostly people know I won't say no to good food. I don't mind spending money on food. If it's expensive but taste good I wouldn't mind paying for it.

To readers that doesn't know how I look like...

No.

I'm not fat if that's what you're picturing when I quoted "Because mostly people know I won't say no to good food".

So how did I managed to control my cash flow today?

By not eating breakfast, and had sandwich for lunch.

I was always a picky vegetable eater. I don't eat raw tomatoes or those salad leaves. But just because I had to spend 2.50 for the sandwich, I actually gobbled everything.

Sheesh...

Where's my manners?

I didn't actually gobbled it. Ate it to be exact.

By not depending on Reza anymore (as some of you may know that I used to work for him), I've learned the value of every single penny I have.

And the calculator seems to be my bestfriend lately...

Thanks to him, I'm a different person now.

Everything you are is everything to me

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more


I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

Sidenotes:
Happy happy Me.