Always try your best to get whatever you love, otherwise you will be forced to love whatever you get.

When I told him it's time to take a risk, I told him despite of anything and everything I hope he's the one I could trust my heart with.

Well he proved it well last night, although the truth hurts but at least he was honest about it rather than lie straight to my face.

So step one, in working things out is working out perfectly fine.

Step two, is mutual understanding. Which I am still working it out on my part. I could be very sensitive and spoilt sometimes. Something apparently he doesn't give in to.

Step three? Well there is no step three as I don't think relationships should be followed by rules or guidelines provided in self-help book section. It is something you discover and something you learn by yourself. (Okay how many something must I mention here in a sentence...)

Just like I did last weekend.

I found out Gulahati could be very stern and strict at times.

Like very strict and almost sound like my mother that night.

It's been a while since someone scolded me like that. Almost scared the crap out of me.

Enough of crapping, move on to what's been happening the whole of last week.

Monday to Thursday, mostly spend with Gulahati.

Friday spent my time at the sticker shop until 7 am the next morning fixing body sticker for Gulahati's Autoshow car.

Saturday off to KL Tower Autoshow.

Sunday, suffered from constipation.

Pictures? All loaded on my Flickr album on the side of this blog page. Too many for me to load it in a post. By the way, I had the Flickr album for quite some time. It's just that I didn't bother to use it much. But since with all the events I'm attending I figured out yesterday, why not put it in use again right? So you may encounter ugly ancient pictures of me back then.

Will update the online album soon when I actually do have the time to do so.

Yesterday Monday, well had a normal day and dinner with Gulahati and a wonderful time laced with love. 

Anyway...

Sometimes it's hard to get it into someone's head that not everything is meant to be. But in my case, everything is worth a try.

Life must go on, despite of everything that's coming your way.

You're at the verge of dying, it's either you're dead or not.

The traffic-light is red, it's either you stay or go ahead.

The food is cold, it's either you heat it up or eat it straight.

It's raining outside, use an umbrella or run through it.

Life is not about making the right choice or the right moves. It's actually more to what's best for yourself. Sometimes what is good for you might be harm for others. Sometimes what makes you happy, bring tears to the other person. Sometimes, everything doesn't seem to be enough.

It's not easy to please everyone but sometimes people just doesn't seem to get it.

I hope everything would settle down soon, because as calm as I try to be I don't want to be hypocrite that I am sad.

Have a great week ahead Everyone.

Sidenotes:

I may not be the one for you, but I would like to make your life worthwhile with me. I hope you're happy for now my dear Gulahati.

1) By the way KFC drive-thru Kota Kemuning, care to explain why you wasted all the spoons on me?

Funny as I opened the plastic the other day after doing my laundry and discovered more than 8 spoons given for me to eat my Whipped Potato.

If only their manager know the workers being wasting stuff like that.

2) Sorry for starting the week with a boring post, having mental-block at the moment.

Eryn, are you Single? I don't know.

Before I do continue on today's second post, click on the picture below to understand the whole story.

It's not the first time I've been getting that particular question asking me to clarify my relationship status.

In fact before I was asked today by F, a few other people texted me on my phone asking me the same question.

"Like who's Gulahati?"

A few others spotted me over here and there with this particular guy, skinny, lanky, small-eyes just like me and rambled over my Facebook wall about it. With the same particular guy over shopping malls and cinemas.

It's either I have busybody friends or I am just so famous like that. The funny thing was, neither one who spotted me came over and say Hi Eryn, or like Hey, what are you doing here?

Instead they decided to come up with speculations and gossip about it among my friends. So for the last time, I want to clear things off. 

When I mentioned Gulahati, it's consists of my "loved ones, family and close friends".

So it could be Gulahati or GulahatiS with a S. 

About my relationship status on Facebook, it's going to be single until I actually tie the knot which is not anytime soon.

Like years to come. Probably not going to happen neither, might die single with what I'm going through now.

Because it's so complicated like that. But I am contented with what I have now. 

For now, I'm happy with my Gulahati and GulahatiS as they never fail to cheer me up when I need them around me.

By the way...

Let me go in on this particular thing I’m starting to see people do on Facebook that is getting on my last nerve. It’s not so much the people who are doing it so much as it is the reaction to the people who are doing it. So yeah, those people, whoever you are, pay attention. I have something to tell you.

All you girls out there who want to leave a comment on your girlfriend’s wall after she announces she is “In A Relationship”, cut it out. Stop. Enough with the “Yeaaaahhhh girl!” and the “Awwwwww”‘s. Save some of that for when you actually see them in person, or the phone call you two are going to have. I mean, that is your real-life friend, right? You do have her phone number, right? You do see her every now and then in real life, right? If your answer to any of these questions are no, then guess what? You have no business commenting on their relationship status update, even if it’s a happy one.

And all you guys out there who want to leave some subliminal message on her status update, with something like, “Another one bites the dust” or something smart like that, you cut it out too.

This is what Facebook has done, it’s reduced the significance of a relationship to something as trivial as a few clicks of the mouse, not because of the relationship status option itself, but the audience replying to the update.

The option of a person’s status has been given since the days of the Friendster Profile or Myspace, so really, we’re not looking at something entirely new here. What is new is the freaking comment section to follow it, so now, whenever we do want to casually update our relationship status just to make sure our profile is accurate with up-to-date information, we look like we’re trying to get the attention of others. And others are giving attention to us when in fact, we may not really want people to praise us just because we’re no longer screwing with other people (according to the status), just one.

As a result, girls are now pining for their men in real lives to represent on Facebook if for no other reason than to get blown up on their wall by all their girlfriends and show up in the time line of their former man who may or may not have lost a good thing. Meanwhile men are being pressured to do something they know really has no bearing on their actions. We’re pretty sure Beyonce said if we really like her we’ll put a ring on it, now we have to put a relationship status update on it too? Fine. Whatever makes her happy and gives the guy more time, we don’t care, because if we’re the type of man who creeps, we’re not doing it on the Internet, we’re doing it in real life. Everyone knows a real side piece doesn’t get the friend request.

If girls really wanted to gloat about their recent takeover of a man’s life, they would know the whole Relationship Status update thing is so 2006. With all the limited profile options, such information can now get hidden, so if he’s the type to creep, he knows how to appease your wishes while at the same time making himself look available. In 2010, the real relationship signifier has now shifted over into the Profile Picture. Any man can put down he’s in a relationship. That ain’t about nothing. But if a man puts up a profile pic of her with another girl, he’s making it loud and clear: Game over.

Quit commenting on a person’s simple old Relationship Status. If they’re in a relationship and you’re genuinely happy for them, call them or email them on the side. Don’t comment on it because the only thing I care about less than so-and-so now being in a relationship, is the person who is happy so-and-so just got into a relationship.

Sidenotes:

Some say "You changed your relationship status online. Now it must be serious."

It doesn't work that way for me.

Tee-hee =)

What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

Had a sleepless night yesterday (I think it's been numerous times I start my post with this line, it seems like I never have a peaceful sleep, haha).

Tossed and turned and roll-over like a rabbit burned its tail. Yes all fluffy yet with a hint of smoked-ass. Hate it when my heart and my mind is not at par, and that leads to my body going astray. Went to bed thinking of what I said during the day and regretted actually saying it.

Sometimes the mouth says things I don't want to, in order for someone to be happy. But at the same time I wished the things I said didn't come true so that I'll be happy. Sometimes we're merely selfish people. 

But yesterday I decided not to be selfish, because I just want to be good  for once.

Crossed fingers and twitched my eyes whole day and  hope I was making the right decision.

Which I thought I did, but in the end resulted to a sleepless night battled with pillows, the bed, blanket and myself.

If only the pillows could talk, he would say "Your tears are pretty salty Eryn and stop hugging me that hard."

If the bed could talk last night, he would say "Sleeping on this side of the bed is not going to cure anything."

If the blanket could talk, he would say "Covering yourself up with me is not going to make you feel any better neither."

It's funny how I always thought myself as a tough-cookie and not letting small things bugs me out. But when it really hit my nerves, I realised just like any other girls I am very sensitive.

Like very.

I'm not even going to get mad anymore. I just got to learn to expect the lowest from people I thought the highest of. 

Letting myself breathe, because I realised I haven't been breathing lately. Brain merely functioned on persuasive heart and things that I thought was enough for me.

One form of loving is when you want the best for someone, whether it includes you or not. So as long as everyone's happy, I'm happy.

Happy Monday everyone.

Sidenotes:

Someday someone might come into your life in a way you've always wanted.

If your someday was yesterday, learn.

If your someday is tomorrow, hope.

If your someday is today, cherish.

Fedoras Hats are Sexy.

It's raining heavily as I typed this. 

Like so heavy, I could barely see the road at a glance as I tilt my head peeking across the computer screen.

Anyway, hello everyone.

How's your weekend so far? Good? Tiring? Full of happiness or just plain boring? 

Mine?

Sitting down with a restless heart worrying about something I should not be worried about.

But a risk taker as usual, let the day worry itself and let this fake smile covers up my worn heart. 

Had a Chicken Day yesterday.

Eat too much chicken until I pooped out an egg this morning.

Went out with Gulahati to Sunway Pyramid, for what random normal people do on a weekend. 

Lunch and movie.

Out of all the shops in Sunway Pyramid, we ended up having lunch at Kenny Rogers. Usual 1/4 chicken meal with 3 side dishes. Ate like a pig because I went out without having any breakfast.

After lunch, we went and watch movie. 

Ong Bak 3 : The Final Battle

(Yes, I know it's a bit tad late for us to watch it and it was Gulahati choice)

For start, I did not watch the first and second installation of the movie. But he convinced me that it's not like Twilight Saga and I don't have to watch the first and second to understand the third one. So I just agreed and watched it. First 20 minutes was okay as all the martial arts jumping and clenching fists got my adrenaline pumping. But then it starts to bug me out as trying to read the subtitles (I don't speak Thailand) at the same time trying to watch the movie is like trying to rap and drink water through your nostrils.

Trust me, the movie was boring. But I stayed up along the movie until it finishes. As I turned my head, Gulahati was sleeping. 

Yes, sleeping.

Hate it when guys sleep during a movie when it starts to get a bit boring. I myself, would stay and watch until the movie finishes in order to make sure the money I paid for the tickets are worth it. But oh guys, they don't seem to value things as much as we girls do.

After movie, we got bored so we went shopping!

Okay probably the exclamation ( ! ) mark sounds a bit exaggerating as we only bought one item after walking aimlessly for an hour.

Gulahati wanted to buy a hat. 

Then we stumbled across some super-cool looking hats at Wild Channel. I am not, by nature, a hat person, but I wish with all my heart that I was, but they just don't look right on me. But Gulahati, on the other hand, found a few that I really liked (and he did, too, once I told him that he looked good in them, powers of persuasion).  The ones we were so attracted to were fedoras, the hat you think of when you think of Frank Sinatra. 

Love, love, love it. 

I like the fedora of the 1940s-50s best, especially since the 1970s-80s brought the longer-brimmed one that you often see paired with a zoot suit and a feather in the band. This is a throwback from the 1920s "gangster/mafia" fedora.

After browsing the shelves, Gulahati tried several on that he really liked, and bought one yesterday.  

Here he is, the man in the dark-grey-almost black one I got for him.

He is so going to kill me for this candid picture.

So Jason Derulo-lah!

(an inside joke only he understands)

After bored of walking aimlessly again, we went for a potato snack : Ireland Potatoes. A small barrel of potatoes which cost RM 8.80. Expensive to me, but heck it was delicious. Order the ones with Honey Mustard dressing, but someone so brilliant, Gulahati decided to add chili sauce and I ended up fuming my tongue with a burning-sensation.

We catched another movie again after that, and for the sake of supporting our local film, we watched Mantra. It wasn't scary, actually but it did managed to keep me awake a few times last night at wee-hours of the morning. 

Now I am cracking my back as I type this. 

After movie we went to Meru, Klang for the best Chicken-Soto proclaimed by Gulahati. 

As who don't have a clue what's Chicken-Soto, it's erm...cubes of rice, with fried rice-noodles, chicken floss and chicken soup? 

Haha, I don't know if my explanation is even right. But yes, it was awesome-ly tasty! The soup is very clear, non-gravy like but the taste was, well you have to try it then you have a clue what I'm talking about. Forget to take picture of it. 

Okay enough of babbling, I shall go eat my super-late-lunch now.

Have a great week ahead people.

Sidenotes:

All this dieting, made me less craving for meals. Hungry yet I just couldn't force food down my throat.

Oh hope I wake up skinny tomorrow and the days to come.

Mmmm whatcha say, Gulahati?

What a day I had last night. Screaming, yelling and singing to Jason Derulo songs. Oh yes, I was there like a true groupie-fan. Let the best pictures I'd chosen to load below speaks for themselves.

I watched the whole press conference at Skybar, Traders Hotel.

When night falls, I watched the whole showcase at Dragonfly. 

Okay to make you extra jealous, here's one of the video recorded.

As you're reading this some might say, lucky her.

Yes, lucky me.

I watched the whole press conference and showcase, from my handphone after bluetooth-ed it last night. Thanks to Gulahati who was in charged for the whole press conference and showcase last night. Thats the benefit of working in an event management company. You get to work yet watch performances. 

Actually I really wanted to go, and was waiting for the tickets from my friend, Zash. But since there's no feedback I didn't bother to ask much from him.

Last night, Gulahati wanted to bring me over there too, but he was busy and had to be there from the beginning of the showcase till the end. So he couldn't come over and pick me up.

So I did my own business and accompanied my friends to pick up some document in Subang and on my way I received a text message from Zash.

"Where are you?"

Thought that he texted me just to annoy and remind me he's at Dragonfly and waiting for Jason to throw him his boxers to the crowd, I called him straight.

"Yea, yea..I know you're watching Jason Derulo. Oh shut up."

Then he replied, "Last minute, my boss couldn't make it. Do come now."

"What??"

I grumbled.

Well as much as I wanted to go, I was only dress in my jeans and t-shirt and was already on the way for dinner at Ara Damansara.

Oh well, in Malay we say "Tak ada rezeki la tu...", in other words, "Just my luck.."

After dinner, I went home straight and cuddled with my blanket. Called Gulahati and he said he was on his way coming back home and asked me out for supper.

Of course without hesitation I said yes, since I was bored.

In the car, he told me. 

"To screw up your Thursday morning (since it was already midnight), let me show you something"

Thinking he was going to show me something that really going to get on my nerve, I was mentally prepared.

Ta-da!

Videos and pictures of Jason Derulo's press conference and showcase.

Thank god I love him. Or else that Nokia e71 of his would be thrown out of the window, for making me jealous he got to say hi to Jason when it was supposed to be me over there giving Jason a hug.

After supper, Gulahati wants to eat Durian. So we stopped and bought a durian. Asked the Uncle who sells the durian to carved it open for us, put it in the car and off we go looking for a place to eat.

Well he ate it most of it. I only took a bite.

Went home, back cuddling with my blanket and snoozed till this morning.

Okay, thats about it.

Have a nice day everyone.

Before I end this post let me leave you with a phrase I read yesterday evening.

"When we are happy some people will not like it. They will try to disapprove our happiness. They will say it will not last. They will take great pleasure looking for the cracks in our worlds. Just smile at these people, for they know not what we know."

Sidenotes:

I am very Contented with my loved ones around me.

Oh by the way, Gulahati means Sweetheart in English.

Gula = Sweet, Hati = Heart.

It's time to take a risk, sweetheart.

Had a hard time sleeping last night.

Cam-whoring is a healthy way to cure boredom

Firstly because I was bored, someone in the house broke the TV. Came back home and saw the TV on the floor and I thought the house was robbed or someone argued in the living room and tossed the TV like WWE show.

Apparently some itchy-itchy-scratchy hand went and press the off button which wasn't supposed to be touched at all. Now I need to sleep somewhere with a TV or else I'll die out of boredom. I still could live without food but heck no TV? Well it's not as chronic as no hand phone. That's another different story.

When I'm bored my mind tends to wonder elsewhere. I started to think over the phone conversations I had over during the day and I was sort of bothered by it. Deeply bothered by it. I did eventually fall asleep in the end. 

Oh well, I guess it's time to take a risk sweetheart.

Wishes everyone a good day today. With lots of sunshine and love on the side line.

Sidenotes:

Received comments in Facebook inbox asking me to turn on my Comment option on my blog. Sorry to say but I don't blog to receive comments nor expect people to give their two cents on my posts. I don't expect people to read it neither. But I do welcomed feedbacks on my Facebook. That's why my Facebook is a little bit private to me.

But come to think of it, nothing is ever private on the net. Once it's on the wire it's everywhere.

It's funny too finding strangers telling me they like my blog. I think it's just a normal almost daily rambling of my day and night..

Just like this message I received yesterday.

With all the good and bad comments (well mostly good), I'm kind of surprised I'm not an action figure by now.

Write it on the sky, Love.

I am so happy today.

For no freaking reason seriously.

People around me asked, "Why you're so happy Eryn?" and I said "I don't know".

Maybe I woke up on the right side of the bed. But my bed is pushed to my wall, and without a choice I always wake up on the right side on my bed. 

Or probably I had a peaceful sleep last night. Beautiful and blank without dream sleep. 

Or probably it was the painkillers I took before I went to bed early last night due to tummy cramp and slightly feverish. How I wished now I'm a guy, period is not something I like to go through with every month.

Or probably it was Love, the reason I'm glowing and gleaming like a dork.

Probabilities is like choices put in a barrel and waited for someone to knock it over and you take whatever is coming your way or at you.

Probabilities for good things to come and bad things thrown at you at the same time is basically the same rate. No one suffers from something they won't be able to face it. God is not that cruel to it's subjects.

So far I am doing fine, great in fact. 

Happy and contented.

Sidenotes:

Some said I have my temper at times, but deep down inside I am a softy.

Or else why would I cried when I listen to lovey-dovey songs?

(Short post today, as I am happily blank in my head)

From KL to Paroi and Back to KL again with Love.

Hello everyone before I do start on today's blog, I would like to highlight one thing about my Feedjit widget on the left side on this blog, do feel free to leave your name so I know each of my faithful readers and followers.

Good day my fellow readers. Hope everyone had a splendid weekend so far like I did. 

So let me bore you with my weekend updates. 

Friday, I didn't do much. Consist of lazing around in the house watching CSI, NCIS and Simpsons and cuddling with my pillows and bed. One big airy room could always cheers me up without fail. Went to sleep early because I had a tummy ache due to having my only meal for the day at 9 pm, thanks to my loved one who bailed me out on me to have lunch. 

Around 3 am nearly 4, received a phone call from my loved ones asking whether I would like to follow their trip to Paroi in Negeri Sembilan for an autoshow organized by the Youth Society of Negeri Sembilan. I was drowsy due to the after effect of painkillers, and was told to made decision in 10 minutes by returning the phone call. Instead of making decision whether I would like to follow or not, I decided to snooze my eyes another 10 minutes. Called back and said yes. I do need a road trip anyway since it's been a while since I went out of KL and Selangor area. 

Was told to be ready around 6 am because it's going to be a long trip to Negeri Sembilan. 

Shah Alam to Negeri Sembilan actually would only take 2 hours maximum if the traffic was smooth, but we had to wait for another 2 cars who's tagging along to join the autoshow. Besides we stopped for breakfast and also stopped for a quick car wash. The journey wasn't that long thanks to LKSA, the new high way which bores me to death looking at the stretch of road consists of palm trees along the road and more and more palm trees until we reached Paroi. 

Let the pictures below explained what a day I had yesterday.

Actually I took a lot of pictures, but not the entire auto show event. Due to everyone is busy with their cars, I didn't dare to walk around and get lost. So I stayed around nearby to my loved one. There's tons of cars actually, with Satria's Club, and all other proton siblings gathered too. It was such a hot day, and I wasn't dressed up for an auto show actually, more like for a movie-night out. 

Lesson learned, next time t-shirts and shorts is enough. 

I got sunburned pretty bad, red cheeks and striped shoulder and chest. 

Black long-sleeve above-knee dress cardigan is a no-no for an auto show.

Since no one was free to take my picture and busy taking pictures of themselves and their cars, I had chance to only snap reflection of me. Pity right?

By the way my loved one, won 2 categories. Congratulations to him.

Arrived in KL around 6 pm and went to Ara Damansara to picked up banners and stands to set up in Istana Budaya for Utusan Malaysia Poetry Recital Night. Helped my loved one who's currently working for a event-management company in Kelana Jaya. After setting up we went for dinner, in Cheras.

Right after dinner we went strolling in the car around KL, to kill time as we had to pick up the banners we set in Istana Budaya. The poetry recital ended up around 11 pm. Packed everything and went back home. Stopped by TTDI Jaya for supper, and arrived home at 2 am.

Woke up around 9 am, went for breakfast with my loved one and here I am blogging this.

Happy Sunday everyone.

Sidenotes:

Complex things in my life right now gives the beat to my heart.


Currently loving the new Alicia Keys feat Beyonce single Put It In A Love Song.

Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put it in a love song (Put it in a love song)
Say you need me, Say you need me
Then write it in a letter for me (Oh oh oh)
Say you want me, Say you want me
Then text me on the cell phone (Text me on my cell phone)
Say you love me, Say you love me
Then put me in a love song (Oh)