I'm so sad, can you hear me ?
My pain ?
I'm hurt, loneliness is killing me.
Pieces of me dying slowly.
I'm so , argh i dunno. Guess what i woke up at 3pm today..lol slept at 6.30am. Life - how pathetic could it be ? I feel like im a hamster rolling in my spinning wheel, aint feeling tired cause i dont know what the real meaning of life. I'm lost in my own thought. I felt neglected - no one bother to wake me up. But aight, im cool with it. I'm a worthless piece of pashmina - torn, no matter how you mend it, it would just still be something old that you wont bother less nor care. Ironic. How could i compare myself with a pashmina ? Pashmina is so outdated - but theres this girl i know wore it. Haha, she called herself trendy. Dear..pashmina dah lapuk dah.. Ouch i could still be sarcastic at this kind of time. Aih. Look at yourself Eryn, you're much pathetic than others.
Yea, i have to agree that. My life, is so darn boring. Theres gotta be more to life right ? But i just cant figure out any for now. Yea i admit things would change a lil once i start college, but im still lacking of something. My bf ? I dunno what i feel for him right now. He said im demanding. That hurt me so deep.
Now i feel like so down in the dumpster. Waiting to be recycled. Turn me into a new heartless Eryn, so i cant feel any pain anymore. It seems i can pujuk other people, but i cant pujuk myself. Pathetic, probably i need to get back to my old life. Where things doesnt matter, pass me that bottle please ?
If loving him was right, and i dont wanna go wrong. So i drown myself with tears, sitting here singing another sad love song .
