:*:Grieve Stricken Heart by Eryn Jean Norma:*:

Eryn Jean Norma ? Yeah, I know Marilyn Monroe real name was Norma Jean, i guessed the name
"Norma Jean" couldn't shine her path to stardom. The fame, the glory, the attention you'll received. Entertainment biz was everything back in the old days, well it still does mean "everything" to the bimbos around the world now..let me cut the list short to 2 names - Paris Hilton & Nicole Richie. No, I'm not the president of the
anti-bimbos society...and NO - i am not addicted to Miss Monroe although we both shares the same birth date. I wonder if she's witty and whacky like me, or did she have that nitty-gritty personality like the others : Geminian ? Lol, who will ever know..she's dead anyway.

She died of drug overdosed. Died in a depression state. She was 34, when she died. It was on a black 5th of August. Sheesh...i remembered her death day, lol..number one fan i guess ? Nah..she's like a some long lost..well a very lost ancestors of mine..lol..it's 5.22am don't mind me crapping.

Did you know, Marilyn wasn't a blonde ? She dyed her hair blonde, cause in the old days blondes had some status in the community - but believe me they're always the dumb ones..Their lil grandchilds still lived till today, for example Jessica Simpson, she's just so stupid. Oh, please don't ever watch "Newlyweds" - she's tryna being cute when she's not. At least watching "Simple Life", you could laugh your ass off with their acts and stuff.

Well back to our Miss Marilyn, yeah she went to this talent scout if i'm not mistaken she was the few brunettes that went for the interview, she realised that they dont even looked at her. Later in the next audition she came with a blonde hair, well you know how it went she got accepted.

She worked as a model for a auto calendar as her first job, man was she just hot and sexy that time. By the way it was a porn thing that got her famous. Yeah then she work on few musicals, films and sort. She was just the primadona of the century during her era. She got married to a news reporter, yeah but he was jealous for her fame and attention she had. Some said he married her for her money, like i said only Marilyn knows the real deal - we'll just sit here and interpret her life to so many imaginative versions.

She reached her 30's and she had a baby. That time younger stars were rising, so she had competitors around her. She was forced to abort the baby, to keep on working - oh gosh it was the painful decision in her life. When i said painful i mean PAINFUL, cause she dont really went to a safe practioner..she went to one of the mexican village to abort her baby, imagine the pain and suffer....she went into a state of depression that time.

During that time, she was highly influenced by drugs. If i remembered the story correctly if was her husband who got her high on drugs...one day people found her dead in her room, i think it was the maid. Some said it was overdosed of drug usage, some said someone drugged her, some said it was her attempt at suiciding well yeah she succeeded..she's dead now..lol.

34 years of life went down the drain just in a flash. Yeah, she's young and naive. When you're born in a poor family and forced to get on your own two feets to support yourself, sometimes you just lost at it. It's not just about being an actor, we're all actors and actresses in this movie called LIFE.

That was my two cents on Marilyn Monroe based on her real life movie, which i watched when i was 10. Lol....8 years back..yeah i'm getting older. I hope I don't end like my Granny Marilyn.

p/s: By the way Happy 9th month anniversary to me and my boyfriend Bakry : ) Loving him loads..

:*: Eryn Jean Norma :*:

Ganguro? Harajuku? I love ya babe ! Tomorrow is the big day !

Hello to all the millions of people who comes to our site....muahhahhahha !!! : )
Sorry i havent been bloggin recently, coz i know, u all love my blogs... i understand, ; )

Anyway, class has started and its tiring..haha...well, thats student life : )

I miss u, comel : ) so much, i think about ya all the time. Today's class was ok, packed as usuall but
with decent breaks in between. i wish u were here..i need a good back rub and a gooooooddd scrub..u know where ; ) My back that is. XD What were u pervs thought i was talking about? aih..hahah

Comel, u are the first person to teach me about the harajuku girls :S They do have weird fashion, but
i just learnt about another kind of girls in ..and they are..the GANGURO GIRLS! :S These are girls that tans
themselves till they are really really dark, dye their hair blonde, and wears white make up around their eyes :S
OMFGBBQWTF!! makes u wonder what other kinds of gurls are there in japan...
BushoLeafo gurls maybe? Gurls who wear nothing but bushy leaves to cover their bodies? :O
or maybe treeyoHuggero which are people who like to hug trees..oh wait..we have em already, they are called
Australians..

Haha. i love u comel. so much. For those of u who wishes to know, Cubby is doing well. She's growing real good. I just hope Cubby isnt smelly..looks like i have to clean her when i get back..hehehe : )

Oh..and another thing, 12As!!!!! MY COMEL GOT 12As!!! HAHAHHA... : ) proudest bf in da world : )
man, its not easy know to get 12As, phew...hebat...my gf is the smartest gurl in the world : ) hahahhaha

Sayang awak so much. you are my comel, cubby lover, pink lover and fwishballsh lover : )

I love u so much ok?

Ok, thats all for today guys..i got a pool game to win : ) oh, i mean, erm...COMEL's gonna win a pool game : )

:*: Kay-Elle Le Baby ! :*:

What a day I had today. I just came back home barely like 15 mins ago, argh so wrecked out. So tired, but i had a fun day today.

Started the day with a lil breakfast, in my own room. Lol..yeah cocoa-butter spread thing i bought in KLCC few days ago. By 12.30 i am ready to go to the audition that i'm suppose to go. The audition starts at 3pm, and it's at Damansara Heights, a place call Acts Studio. It is a school of performing arts. My friend Syafique picked me up at 1pm, in his car..lol he's driving a car now instead of a scooter...phew...don't expect me to hump ride a scooter all the way through KL babe..that's just not so Eryn.

Get down on the road, and everything seems pretty well...until we hit the town. Dang ! Traffic jam ! Patient Eryn..patient...yeah i was patient for a while until the clock strikes 2.30 pm and we're still stuck in the jam around Jalan Tun Ismail area..

Cut short my traffic story..we arrived around 3.11 pm. The audition wasn't on yet, since they were waiting for the producer to arrived...sadly the producer and her crew arrived at 3.40pm...i was starving to death that time. I had few talks with few people there. They're just cool happening people, like Syed, Ben, Sheryl, Fiona, Farah, Elle..there is one more dude..forgotten his name. Lol..

Waited for my turn till 4.30 pm. I was next. They told me to talk about myself for 1 minute, lol...1 min ? That's just so not Eryn...1 minute aint enough for me, since im a talker who could talk to someone to death. Talked about myself and sort...then they asked me to read a script and i was put up with Syed. OMG he's so cute...and funny..he made me laugh all the way and chased the butterflies in my tummy..glad there's someone like him there..cuz the other contestants were just so cocky. After finished the audition i decided not to stay to watch the other contestants after me, cause Syafique was bored to death collecting lizards dung on the waiting area...lol well he was bored. Poor him. So i filled in the form with my contacts and everything, and too-de-loos to them.

Jumped in the car with Syafique, and off to KL !! Lol..man i had so much fun, we ate a Bukit Bintang. Then had some Starbucks Frappucino..and i bought 2 doughnuts....they were just so sweet and soft waiting me to pick them out from the tray...I ate a lot since, i didnt had anything for lunch. Syafique was like "Aih, you so hungry ?"..

Lol..please dont picture me eating sloppishly with the sugar bits all over..i still kept my table manners on ok ?

Walk thru KL, till 8pm. Decided to go home, cause i was so tired. It was raining by then, so traffic was so much worst, so we head home early..escaped from the traffic before the whole KL started to clogs up..

So here i am sitting, and my bf just got online too. I wonder how was his day ? Hope it's all good..laters.

Home sweet home : Kay Elle.

:*: Eryn:*:

:*: Dilemma :*:

Most of the newspapers today, have her as frontpage. She scored 17 A 1. Freaks me out, i took 14 subjects and knowing her scored 17 A 1 just spooks me out. She get to know her results like 2 days ago unofficially since she's the top scorer in the whole Malaysia, and im sitting here banging my head waiting for tomorrow.

For the SPM she decided to challenge herself, and took 10 subjects taught at her school: Additional Mathematics, Modern Mathematics, Bahasa Malaysia, English, History, Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Commerce and Islamic Studies.She also studied seven subjects outside the school’s syllabus: Tasawur Islam, Malay Literature, Basic Science, English for Science & Technology, Basic Economics, Arts, and Principles of Accounting.

Me 14 subjects :
1. Bahasa Malaysia
2. English
3. History
4. Modern Maths
5. Additional Maths
6. Physics
7. Chemistry
8. Biology
9. Islamic Studies
10. EST - English for Science and Technology

Additional 4 subjects was :
11. Principles of Accounting.
12. Commerce
13. Basic of Economy
14. Arts

I'm so freaking out. Wish me all the best yea ?
:*: Eryn :*:

:*: Sleepless Night :*:

It's 5.32 am, and im still wide open, my eyes i mean..did 2 surveys on friendster. Just took my pills, i should doze of soon. I cant sleep, well this time not cause i miss Bakry, well i do miss him. It's about the SPM results is due to be out tomorrow, Thursday. I'm like freaking my head off thinking of it, lol.

Everyone thinks that im gonna end up with a good result, but my confidence level is like so negative zero now..lol..wish me luck yea ? Pray that everyone not just me scores with flying colours.

Flunked ? Failed ? I've been thru it before. Physics and Additional Maths were my weakest subjects, physics teacher just bores us to death. She's like saying "you must get good results", but her teaching yeah she'll make you sleep for sure, trust me it happens. I love Biology and Chemistry comes second. I'm not that worried about my BM and English. Maths and Islamic Studies weren't that bad after all. EST [English for Science and Technology] was the best subjects ever, you dont have to study on it that much but you'll sure score..lol...

The extra subjects i took was Economy, Commerce, Accounting, and Art. I love Art and Commerce. Economy well i scored good results too so far, but i really really shouldn't have taken up Accounts. The numbers just dazed me to death..lol.. 14 subjects, lets see how i score, wish me luck aight ?

What field im gonna major in after this ? After having some talk with my parents, well they basically let me do anything i want. Talked to friends and looked at some prospects, well Business it is. I like the whole science thingy that wonders you in life, but living in Malaysia and the demands of the whole globalisation world, career prospects does play a part in the choice i made. Only Business makes the world goes round, you have to admit that. Lol..the whole science thing, sigh in Malaysia we're so outdated, well we're catching up but the Westerners still look at us as same as the others, i'm talking about Third World Country.

" Yeah, Eryn..why dont you make a change ? "..you might be saying that as sitting there laughing at my grammartical errors in this blog, but heck i care, its just a blog..who cares about it..lol..but i do hate reading typing errors tho..Well back to the story. How could i make that change, if there aint any people gonna support aspiring people like us, who's definitely inspired by the white people. Malaysia is just so lack of everything, and when we really tried something new - it's always left overs from other countries. Sorry Malaysia, i'm not against you, call me a backstabber or something, but yeah..it's reality.

Even the government doesnt show their concern sometimes, they're still importing foreigners as specialist. It makes as if we're so un-educated. Like our own doctors are not qualified or has the qualities to be a specialist. But yeah i'm not just talking about being a doctor in Malaysia, other aspects in science world as well.

That's why some locals who did their masters and such.. overseas, decided to stay there. It's like always a bigger oppurtunity out there, i mean out of our "Lil Malaysia". Then our government will be weeping their ass out, paying them money to come back with the whole "kembali berjasa kepada negara"- do good deeds to your country thing..but we all know, like we're running out of money to import more specialist so why not invite all our locals, for some cheap labour ? I had a friend who's already graduated doing his masters, and been in US for like 5 years now, he doesnt wanna come back, well why must he if, he's living a great life with his sports car with a great job over there ?

It's not like i might do the same, but yeah a little changement in my "Lil Malaysia" would be great. Although people been looking at us lately, we just have to proove a little more that we're not that just one lil country that only takes thing as it comes. We're ought to be SOMEBODY, and you could start helping making that change today.

Ok, i think i babbles enough, nites people, wait...its morning already..lol.

Another piece of my mind.
:*: Eryn :*:

:*: Cuppycake :*:

You're my honey bunch,
sugar plum,
pumpie umpy umpkin...
you're my sweetie pie.

You're my cuppy cake,
gum drop,
snookum snookums
you're...the apple of my eye!

:*: When you're bored you decided to explore stuff :*:

I LOVE BAKRY !

YES !

SO MUCH !

SAYANG MY COMEL.

MY BOOSUK.

MY BABY.

MY SEPET.

I wonder what those transcripts means. Lol..figure it out !

Eryn.

:*: Reminisce the fond memories :*:

It's 5.31am. Bakry so gonna kill me if he reads this. Sorry comel, i cant sleep. I promise i'll sleep right after i finish this and yes i dah makan ubat few minutes ago.

Right here im sitting hearing to some songs i downloaded today. Yea finally i get my Limewire working. 3 days without downloading new songs, i feel so dead. Like i lost touch with music or something.

Well what i was gonna write was about memories. After listening to a few love songs. Well the happy ones i mean, I remembered what i've gone through with my boyfriend, Bakry. What we did when we spend time together. Sweet ones, happy ones, funny ones. Food sharing. He just know how to make me happy. Right from my favourite strawberry sundae to my crispy nuggets. How i like my drinks to be, how he tuck me in bed, how he make sure everything is perfect, nice and cosy right before i step in.

I remembered how i felt dizzy, when i passed by this chinese herbal shop when we wanted to get our favourite Aunt Anne pretzels. He told me to follow the other way round, and offered to buy it. But we end up passing the shop together, cause i cant be apart from him.

I remembered how he'll make sure the waiter at Mc donald's drive-thru provide my coke 2 straws. Or he'll turn back and get the 2 straws himself.

I remembered how he feed me food, holds the cup for me. He spoilt me totally. How he'll make sure the radio is playing my favorite songs.

The times when we hang out in the garden, sits on the swing and look at the sky together. When im sick he offers his help totally, make sure that i'll get everything i need.

How we both sang in the car, making our own redention of any duet songs. The way he kisses me, hugs me, i could feel this whole love thing around me.

I still remembered last week, when i hug him and kiss him for the last time a day before he left for Australia.
Sigh, thinking of it made me sad a moment. But those happy memories kept me going till today. I miss him so much, too much to be exact.

All these small stuff, making me love him more everyday. Call me spoilt, call me fussy but i know he truly loves me and he cares about me.

Love my Bakry,
Eryn.

:*: I promise you Bakry ! :*:

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone,
Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise,
I promise I will.

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you.
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold,
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

And I love you more every day,
And nothing will take that love away,
When you need someone,
I promise I'll be there for you,
I promise.

:*: Whuttadilly :*:

Nothing much for the day, woke up around 3 pm. Yeah, i know my biological clock pretty messed up. Was dead bored, dunno what to do and i end up watching Sepet till 7.30 am. My sister got some dvds, wonder why couldnt she find something better to watch. Nice story line, but i guess the scenery was just too unrealistic. Talking about different races, but the scene was in 2000 era. People just dont give a crap about different races coupled up together. Well the story was about 19-year old Ah Loong is in charge of a stall selling pirated vcd's. Contrary to what you might expect someone of his social standing to be, Ah Loong is an incurable romantic with an unlikely hobby - he loves to read and write poetry. Quite content to carry on being the Romeo of the slums, Ah Loong's life takes a sudden turn one day when a 16-year old Malay schoolgirl name Orked arrives at his stall in search of Wong Kar-Wai's films...well pretty nice like i said, but its like too lame.

"One chinese boy, one malay girl, one unforgettable love story" the director trying to emphasize. Hello wake up please...this whole race issue thing was dead since the early 90's..only those typical minded people who still have that kind of mentallity. Passé mind we call it.

Well to whoever havent watch it yet try it, you might just dwell in the whole soapy different race love thing or be bored with it. By the way "sepet" means those lil eyes. Asian especially chinese, have this small eyes, well thats what "sepet" means i dont know the exact word in english.

Anyway i miss my comel so much. Sayang dia. He's "my sepet"..muah !
Eryn.