There are some people I can always talk to and be comforted by, even if they don't try to cheer me up..but there are some insensitive people out there that I'd rather not talk to. screw them, and good riddance. Well, can't really say good riddance if they're not exactly rid of.
I'm exasperated with the world and with myself. Some people spaz over the darndest things. Like me. Some things are controllable. I should stop complaining about things if I can do something about it..but most of the things I feel like I have no control over...but there's a certain person I know that is keeping his feelings inside without telling someone about them..and it's hurting him in the process.
If he doesn't talk about it, it's just going to keep on hurting him..and it's really hard to watch..but in a way, he's hurting himself because he knows keeping it in is going to only give him more pain. If he KNOWS it, why can't he take action? If he isn't taking action, why is he complaining? Sounds a lot like me, though. But half the things I can't control because I know speaking up for anything will do absolutely no good for the things I'm dealing with. actually, speaking up would only make things worse.
Do you realize that I try to work us out and be happy mainly because I need some control over SOME aspect of my life? But once I don't have that control/comfort/security, what do I have? Life is so..dizzy, sometimes.
Actually, you don't realize..because as I've said before, you don't look hard enough... or maybe I don't show anything but shallowness...but even the people that know don't really KNOW.
With my head in my hand I sit and cry,
Eryn.
