Finally...

Finally, i am able to blog..after a long while..haha

Just as eryn have posted in her previous posts, i am in australia... and am runnin on stupid dial up which wont load the blog composer... but now i am in uni..yay..i am bloggin again

Well, its been almost a week, and things didnt go well at first, my things were in the storage, my comel misses me a lot..i love u too,,, and things are getting cold.. yea yea.. i know,,aussie cold is nothin compared to america or Uk's weather...but..blek..its cold to me.. my room's gas heater isnt on coz apparently, the admins will only switch the gas on mid march..or april..haha..damn them...

I love u comel..so much : )

Oh..and for all of u who didnt know...eryn is comin to melbourne..yay !!
No more take outs for me!! Oh wait...she doesnt cook anyway..hahahha

Got my stuff out of storage today..and well, it was heavy, and the plastic handles of my storage boxes sort of was eating thru my fingers..which hurts like hell... but now, i finally have my stuff with me..so i can get things started properly now..

Today is the first day of classes..wonder how it will go... will i meet another Roberto? or maybe THE Roberto himself ? Hahahha...private joke there..hahah

Ok, got to run,
love u eryn..so much, muah

:*: Totally Paris :*:

As i was bored, i play quizzes online haha, took the Paris quiz and yeah im totally Paris, woohoo..haha..

:*: Hear me ? :*:

I'm so sad, can you hear me ?

My pain ?

I'm hurt, loneliness is killing me.

Pieces of me dying slowly.

I'm so , argh i dunno. Guess what i woke up at 3pm today..lol slept at 6.30am. Life - how pathetic could it be ? I feel like im a hamster rolling in my spinning wheel, aint feeling tired cause i dont know what the real meaning of life. I'm lost in my own thought. I felt neglected - no one bother to wake me up. But aight, im cool with it. I'm a worthless piece of pashmina - torn, no matter how you mend it, it would just still be something old that you wont bother less nor care. Ironic. How could i compare myself with a pashmina ? Pashmina is so outdated - but theres this girl i know wore it. Haha, she called herself trendy. Dear..pashmina dah lapuk dah.. Ouch i could still be sarcastic at this kind of time. Aih. Look at yourself Eryn, you're much pathetic than others.

Yea, i have to agree that. My life, is so darn boring. Theres gotta be more to life right ? But i just cant figure out any for now. Yea i admit things would change a lil once i start college, but im still lacking of something. My bf ? I dunno what i feel for him right now. He said im demanding. That hurt me so deep.

Now i feel like so down in the dumpster. Waiting to be recycled. Turn me into a new heartless Eryn, so i cant feel any pain anymore. It seems i can pujuk other people, but i cant pujuk myself. Pathetic, probably i need to get back to my old life. Where things doesnt matter, pass me that bottle please ?

If loving him was right, and i dont wanna go wrong. So i drown myself with tears, sitting here singing another sad love song .

Ey, shove your butt away cuz mine much more firmer..lol..another gila post from me, i'm fucking bored dont mind me..o.O WoObLy BubBLe BuTt O.o ...eryn dah gila...yeah say it once together..again " Eryn dah gila " 

:*: Deasel's new imaginary partner :*:

This lil mutt, i saw him 2 years ago - i think Farah was the one who showed me. I'm so bored and all the sudden this lil mutt popped up into my mind, went and search for cute puppies and there he was, waiting me for me to save his pics and put in on my blog page, haha. If i could have it in real life it would be great, at least my another imaginary pet cat : Deasel, have a new friend to play with haha, im crazy dont mind me it's 4.40am and im not sleeping yet.

:*: Senyuman Ragamu - Gerhana Ska Cinta :*:

Ke mana saja
Kau berlari bersembunyi..
Ku tahu cintamu
Padaku teguh..
Takku peduli cara
Dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung
Dari hujan basah
Pabila malam
Ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku
Berakhir nikmatnya
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

:*: Separation sucks :*:

It's been 4 days since i didnt see my bf, i mean physically. He's back in Melbourne. I miss him dearly, nothing else to write on here cause i didnt get the chance to spend the day with him as usual. I miss him, i'm sick, this waiting hurts me, im emotionally torn, my mind unstable. My eyes hurts cause i've been crying all day - till when this misery gonna stab me ?

I hope it ends soon, i cant take it any longer. Feels like a sledge hammer stuck in my heart and drag me all the way...i miss my comel..so much, teleport me there please..

Listening to " Terpesona by Gerhana Ska Cinta " right now, pitiful lyrics but the tunes are great. I actually listened to the song and typed out the lyrics cause i cant find it online.

Kau selalu di hati ku,

Tiap detik dan waktu,

Kau masih di hati ku,

Walaupun kau tak tahu,

Kaulah yang terindah,

Indah taman kota pavillan,

Bagai bidadari,

Ayu wajahmu,

Tiada terperi,

Inginku bersama mu selalu.

Kau selalu di hatiku,

Kau bertahta di jiwaku,

Cintaku hanya untukmu,

Walaupun kau tak tahu.

Tapi apa yang ku pasti,

Kau tak akan ku miliki,

Telah ku cuba berkali,

Kau tak pernah pun peduli.

Missing my comel,

Eryn

:*: So Just Cry A Little :*:

Goodbyes. Why does it has to be so hard ? Why separation has to starts will lots of tears and end up with big smiles when reunion strikes back ?

You could go questioning about a whole lot of questions in life, why isnt this fair - or why didnt things goes around like you want it to be.

My dear boyfriend Bakry.

I spent the whole day with him for the last time yesterday, we had those routine hugs and kisses. Spent the day by having lunch, sitting on the swing in the garden together, ate my favorite pizza...sigh. I'm gonna miss all these moments until he comes back, which is a 4 months worth of waiting.

I know im gonna be a crybaby for the next 4 months. Things are not gonna be the same for a while. But he'll be with me always, altho' not physically - but his heart remains here, by my side : watching me, guiding me, helping me out searching for the true me.

I'm not going to continue this blog any longer, cause thinking of it making me cry, his flight is like 19 hours and 40 mins to go. I hope he have a safe journey. God please keep him save for me. He's the only one could make my life worth a lil more longer each day.

I love you Bakry.

Take care,
Eryn.

:*: Say goodbye please dont cry - because a true love never dies :*:

Yesterday i spent a day with my bf, Bakry. Theres 2 days left till his departure to Australia. I've been crying mad, cause im going to miss him more than ever this time. I love everything about him, the way he made me laugh, the way he holds me while im sleeping, his soft kisses, his hugs..sigh...im going to miss everything about him. Imagine 4 months of loneliness...who's gonna share my crappy day ? Who's gonna listen to me ? Yeah i do have friends but having someone special to listen to you is everything a girl ever wanted in her life.

I slept like 5am yeasterday, and i woke up 5.30pm. Yea wasted a day doing nothing, how pathetic life could be. Can't wait for Monday to spend my day with my comel, Bakry. I'm gonna miss him. He's out shopping now, for stuff to bring to Australia. I hope he had a nice day today. I love ya Bakry.

I'm still stoned.
Eryn

:*: Love em' nails ! :*: