:*: The Words of a Lover :*:

The words of a lover
Can be as soothing and calming
Like a cup of hot tea on a cold blistery day.
They can be as tender as a petal
Or as loving as a tender caress
A drop of water in a parched land.

Yet the words of a lover
Can be like a sting of a bee,
A sharp slap on your face,
A roar and growl of savage beast,
A piercing of a nail into the palm of your hand,
Or like a prick of a spindle.

Thus are the words of lovers
That can build you up
And then tear you down.
The words that can fill your heart
The words that can also make you drown.

By : Red Sugar

:*: Ughh I'm Pissed :*:

Oh yes. I'm so pissed. Someone used my pc and deleted my Ares, ughh all my songs are gone . Everything, EvEryThinG !! You know, Eryn without music is ughhh that is just not ME !

Oh well, I have to download all over again my songs. Isn't that just pathetic ?

In the mean time, I'm happy. Because I've been spending my time with my bf after school everyday = )

Recap of what I did this week :
Monday - Bakry
Tuesday- Bakry
Wednesday - Bakry
Thursday - Bakry
Friday - He went back to his kampung to visit his granny.

Seeing him on Monday. Oh guess what, this coming Tuesday is a special day for us = )
It is gonna be our 1 year 1 month anniversary, and Thursday is his birthday..yay he's gonna be 22 this Thursday, tua dah my bf nih... Sayang awak Comel.

Sorry for not blogging much, nothing much to talk about for this 3 weeks other than Bakry, Bakry, Bakry !
If I blog about what we did everyday, you'll get bored over it. Lol, ok now back to downloading songs time !

Toodles Coodles,
Eryn.

:*: He's back :*:

Yesterday I hang out with my bf, after like 4 months haven't hug him and kiss him. My boosuk. His hair grew longer and he look much more cuter.

Guess what he got me for my birthday, well a belated b'day gift. Paris Hilton's perfume =). His best friend Nick got me Paris Hilton autobiography =). I love Paris cause Paris loves Pink ? Lol.

On Monday gonna hang out the whole day with him. Gonna have my belated b'day muffin and strawberries. He told me he is gonna sing me b'day song too. Well monotonous-ly...Lol. He's cute.

Yesterday, we had fun cuddling and karaoke-ing in the car to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5. As usual he makes a bad lead singer. Lol..can't wait for Monday.

[Heart] Bakry,
Eryn.

:*: Broadening the Eryn's effect =P :*:

Yay. Tomorrow is Friday. That means I get to see my boyfriend tomorrow..yay. He's coming back for 3 weeks holiday. I wanna hug him so tight and never let go my Boosuk tomorrow.

Anyway let us talk about school today. School was stressful yet fun. We had maths test today. I've flunked my last test, I hope I don't flunk on this one lol...Ughh Form 6 is so friggin hard, everyone knows that meaning I have to work extra hard. But look at me.

What have I been doing at school for the past 1 and 1/2 months I'm there ?

.....Lol.....

Nothing much just walking around spreading and broadening the Eryn's effect. Call me "perasan" or what but I've realised the guys been asking me whether I have a boyfriend or indirectly asking me,
" Are you attached to anyone...SpEcIaL ?

.....Lol.....

I found it so funny. Cause who would like this arrogant "perasan bagus" , pink girl ?

So far I've annoyed everyone at the school with my snobbish spoilt brat attitude but yet they find it attractive ? A dude passed me a candy, and I've return it back to him by smashing the candy with a mug at paste it on a piece of paper and yet he still wanna be friends with me. Funny. I've been telling them I don't eat cheap stuff, to make them hate me but yet they think I'm cool. I've been doing a lot of stuff to make them hate me and leave me alone. So far it ain't working and it is only making they like this pink girl more and more.

The effect ? Girls hate me. Lol. Especially the former girls from the school, they just find it annoying for a new girl like me drawing the attention of all guys not just my own race, even Chinese and Indians.

The Malays ? Ughh, they're still living in a dilemma. They don't accept me, they look at me like I'm some alien or something. They ditch me like I'm not a part of them, well technically we're the same race. They don't accept the open-minded side of me, I quote about Mawar rumbling over UiTM university that is overpopulated with bunch of malays, especially the typical ones. When are they gonna grow up, and accept people like us ?

Is it wrong for not sticking to your own community and search for friendship with other people ?

I feel sick looking at them. They annoyed the hell out of me, but hey I think one of us have to step out and break the ice right ? My fault too for not mixing up with them.

Oh well let us not stress out about it. Tomorrow is Friday, and I'm so happy to get to see my boyfriend after school. I'm so happy about it.

I haven't been writing lately. Tons of work to do. Busy busy school life. I'll try to blog more often. Furthermore my boyfriend's new apartment comes with broadband so he could load the blog easier and blog. So soon, you wont just be hearing more from me the annoying brat but from my Comel. Lol.

I'm out of idea to write. Oh well probably there's something to talk on Friday and the Weekends. Since I'm gonna help and attend a wedding of one of my cousins. So..Toodles Coodles my duh-lings !

Broadening the Eryn's effect,

Eryn.

:*: It's Like That :*:

What a week.

Friday was a tiring one. Went Mid Valley after school to shop for a new sweat-pants to wear on Saturday, and a new sport shoe. Then I came back around 6.30pm and I slept till 12.30am. Then I woke up feeling super hungry, had a cup noodle then sleep again.

Woke up at 6.50am the next day, which is a Saturday. Went to school at 7.30am, cause we had this sport-orientation thing. Oh god, it was Fun. Altho' we end up in a mess with flour all over me, and paint all over my body. A total war between the seniors and the juniors. Lol. But my team didn't win anything sadly but we had fun. We were forced to drink thick salt water, soya sause water, and Wasabi biscuits...ughh end up getting stomach ache. I'll update this post with pictures soon, as soon I have the pictures cause it wasnt mine camera.

Oh well, next year it would be my turn to torture the juniors. Lol, I'll be good. Nyahaha. Instead of Wasabi biscuits, it would be chili padi + wasabi + tobasco + mexican pepper Sandwich ? Instead of salt water and soya sauce... it would be fish pond water ?

Today is Sunday. I'm still exhausted from yesterday, I bet tomorrow it would be talk of the school about what happened on Saturday.

My Comel just moved out of his dorm and staying in a student accomodation in the City. A very apartment-like room, not bad I guess. Hope he enjoyed his new house.

Hmm its like 4 days more till I get to see my boyfriend. Cant wait !

Missing my Boosuk,
Eryn.

I finally moved out of that dump

Hey everyone,

finally moved out of that dump... and now i can blog often thanks to broadband..
its hard moving by yourself...got to make several trips in order to shift everything out and i still have a bag pack, a plastic bag, and a plastic box... i'll do that tomorrow.. :)

new place is a lot better than my previous one...more proper... with a CLEANER bathroom..ahahhah

got a unit-mate called Evan...he's from indiana... nice guy...but we'll see how it all goes... dumm dumm dummm...

still unpackin a bit now...haha..banyak barang tau...

ok, will blog again when i am done with moving... take care

Bakry

I have nothing to write about
yet the ink keeps flowing
I have nothing to talk about
but my mouth keeps going

I have nothing to dream about
but sleep still takes me
I have nothing I dare to hold on to
but my arms still try grasping

I have nothing but these empty words
with which I try to attach some meaning
I have nothing but my memories
blurring faster than I can write them down

I have nothing but inertia
holding me down,keeping me from floating away
I have nothing but fear of death
that keeps me from saying goodbye today

I have nothing and want nothing more
but my fear keeps me from really seeing
That I'm lying through my teeth and holding all this in:
all the hopes I ever had
all the wishes that I've made
all the love and joy I have longed for
all the hatred that consumes me
all the pain embedded deep in my heart
making me want to sleep forever
though it is what keeps me alive.


You know I'm bored,
Eryn

:*: Sunday Morning :*:

I woke up early today, lol at 9am...I think this is the first time ever I woke up early on a "weekend" . Slept at 11.45pm..was too tired to stay up on a Saturday night. Yesterday was a fun day, met a new friend name Basil...met old friends at Sunway. Nothing much, except I satisfied myself with 2 bars of chocolate and 1 bar of Snickers...right after I had my lunch..lol.

Came back online, thought of doing my work but was too tired. Chat for a while then went to bed. I couldn't blog lately due to the mounted pile of assignments I had. Nothing much to talk about neither other than school and friends.

Now I'm gonna search some points for me speech on the 30th, Thursday and I'm not prepared YET. I have the points but can't seem to construct the points into sentences. I'm doomed, and I'm so scared I'll screwed up on that day.

I wanna buy a Bunny...lol. I used to have 6 rabbits when I was small, but becaused my family keep moving around we left them to my grandmother, and all of them died after some time.

People say bunny stinks. But I think they're cute. I wanna buy one and toilet-trained it. We'll see. Probably get some Angora bunnies, but they're pretty hard to maintain..or a Dutch bunny...they're fat and cute.

Gonna buy lunch any time soon. Had toasted bread with butter and coconut jam, and a cup of hot chocolate. Boring Sunday...and I'm pissed for no reason with my bf.

Tomorrow is Monday,
Eryn.

:*: Nothing Special :*:

School is friggin tiring, well it started off with a good start. Arrived at school at 6.30am. Yes - 6.30 . Well my friend Audrey arrived much more earlier than me. Decided to came early cause wanted to write a speech, the class would be peaceful early in the morning. Speech on Bribery. A boring topic and I'm chosen to represent the school.

As soon I arrived school, plan decided to change. Lol, that's normal I guess. We were chit-chatting in the canteen and eating our breakfast. I was munching on some pretzels and cookies I brought from home. In the end, we started our first class with this full belly.

Nothing special today happened, but I had fun at school. Especially Biology time, we just cracked ourselves all the way...lol. Can't wait for Saturday, going to Sunway College to check out some stuff and meet my friends over there. Can't wait for July 2nd and 3rd too, meeting some friends on Cheerleading Competition day. But the day I most look forward to is July 7th, my bf is coming back home for weeks holiday. Yay.

Tomorrow is Friday, I hope it is gonna be a good day. Well I hope it aint a busy one, there is tons of homeworks I have to do. Felt the pressure yesterday after doing Biology practical report. Then the next day is Saturday, then Sunday, then we're back to Monday. Student life couldn't be any much routine than that.

Chilling out to John Legend featuring Kanya West song titled, Number One. Aight. Toodles people.

You know that I love you..
There's no one above you..
I said it the last time..
But this is the last time..
Don't make me over..
Cuz I can be faithful..
Baby you're my number one..
You're my number one..

Bakry's my number One,
Eryn.

:*: Friggin insect :*:

Princess Eryn + Take my tortured heart by the hand says:
u love me?

- Bak - =^o.O^= says:
yes

- Bak - =^o.O^= says:
but we cant be too serious

After 1 year of being together he decided to tell me this today. So picture how am I feeling this very moment. Speechless.

When being asked, his reason were :

Princess Eryn + Take my tortured heart by the hand says:
are u serious about me?

- Bak - =^o.O^= says:
serious la

- Bak - =^o.O^= says:
but wat i meant is that we shouldnt get too serious
Princess Eryn + Take my tortured heart by the hand says:
like?

- Bak - =^o.O^= says:
know that there are other people too

So now we have to consider about other people too. I never knew that. Oh, yes I'm pissed alright.

To mount it all up the emotion-less state I'm going thru' right now... I just got stung at my neck by this friggin insect, ughhh it hurts. Rubbed my fingers at my neck and I still could feel the sting mark on my neck. Among of all the places the insect decided to give a love-bite at my neck lol. Yeah the mark looks like a love-bite.

I have a lot to talk about, but I'm just not in the mood to talk for now, I'll talk about it tomorrow I guess. Toodles coodles.

Take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off,

Eryn.