I asked myself a question today.
If things are getting worst, should I go talk to a psychiatrist?
I think I am going crazy.
I asked this question to a dear friend of mine Zash, and he said that "You already knew the answer to your problem, and yet you're thinking you're crazy. Please think with a clear mind. Your problem is not that extreme. Really."
It's hard to think when you're in a state of delirium. A temporary state of mental confusion and fluctuating consciousness resulting from shock, or other causes. It is characterized by anxiety, disorientation, hallucinations, delusions, and incoherent speech.
Well I haven't hallucinate yet, not having any sort of delusions. Nor speaking incoherently. Just plain crazy.
But I think somehow things are getting better. Or at least I thought it was. Probably he read my plea in my previous post. Thats why probably he drop a line showing he is still on speaking terms to me although he did not practically saying "Hi, how are you doing?" etcetera. But I wished he could reply any of my messages so that I know that we're good and we're going to be alright.
The funny thing is, I am so positive that we could get through our problem with each other but I am not positive of staying strong until we get to talk to each other.
What's going on with us, I don't know. Whenever I talked about that 1 year thing, you would say I was the one who's going to give up on us. But now you're the one wrecking my heart into pieces. I've said I'm going to wait, if you've been reading my letters. Well I am going to although I am losing my sanity.
In the meantime, I'll just coaxed myself with whatever I have now.
Blankets, t-shirts, sweatpants, undergarments, towel, helmet? Whatever that I could find in my room to keep me warm and ease me from my weariness, sadness, gloominess. Darn, I just love the English language, adding -ness just exaggerate everything.
Watched Princess and The Frog yesterday. Yes, I know I'm a little outdated. But I really enjoy the movie yesterday. It was light, funny, and amazingly amusing. Not your typical fairytale, but then they did lived happily ever after though. No castles, or horses, or knights involved. The story was set up in the 40's-50's era I think. In old Louisiana jazz town. So throughout the whole movie, it was all jazzy. Who said everything has to be 3D in order to make the story interesting? Sometimes back to the classic basic is what we need. Two-thumbs up to the movie though.
I hope things are going to get better soon.
I know it will.
Short notes:
Feels like its raining in my lungs. Please throw me a banana-boat and come rescue me.
But I think somehow things are getting better. Or at least I thought it was. Probably he read my plea in my previous post. Thats why probably he drop a line showing he is still on speaking terms to me although he did not practically saying "Hi, how are you doing?" etcetera. But I wished he could reply any of my messages so that I know that we're good and we're going to be alright.
The funny thing is, I am so positive that we could get through our problem with each other but I am not positive of staying strong until we get to talk to each other.
What's going on with us, I don't know. Whenever I talked about that 1 year thing, you would say I was the one who's going to give up on us. But now you're the one wrecking my heart into pieces. I've said I'm going to wait, if you've been reading my letters. Well I am going to although I am losing my sanity.
In the meantime, I'll just coaxed myself with whatever I have now.
Blankets, t-shirts, sweatpants, undergarments, towel, helmet? Whatever that I could find in my room to keep me warm and ease me from my weariness, sadness, gloominess. Darn, I just love the English language, adding -ness just exaggerate everything.
Watched Princess and The Frog yesterday. Yes, I know I'm a little outdated. But I really enjoy the movie yesterday. It was light, funny, and amazingly amusing. Not your typical fairytale, but then they did lived happily ever after though. No castles, or horses, or knights involved. The story was set up in the 40's-50's era I think. In old Louisiana jazz town. So throughout the whole movie, it was all jazzy. Who said everything has to be 3D in order to make the story interesting? Sometimes back to the classic basic is what we need. Two-thumbs up to the movie though.
I hope things are going to get better soon.
I know it will.
Short notes:
Feels like its raining in my lungs. Please throw me a banana-boat and come rescue me.
