If you’re a hopeless romantic, searching for Tom Cruise "You Complete Me" type of person, you better leave now. Because I’m about steamroll any Jerry Maguire-drenched happily-ever-after scenarios. Go now while your ideals are still in tact.
Been waking up to tears lately. Pain so deep that it aches in ways I’ve never felt before. I used to think. “If it’s so hard it musn’t be true love. True love has a meant-to-be-ness about it that’s gotta make everything easier. Like, if it’s that hard, then it just ain’t right. Right? My relationship with my own self is complicated, how could I expect it to be simple with another?
I hardly talk to him anymore, it was a few words before everything got into a mess. She knows we’re ____________ . I guess and all the things that were unique and special about me are things she’s starting to do. He won’t need me anymore and just the way he says things lately is enough to kill me.
I’m so incredibly stupid. I should just keep to myself, any time I’ve ever taken a risk I end up being told there is someone better than me. I’m tired of coming in second, tired of someone else always being better.
It’s so hurtful to keep getting told how great and awesome you are but not good enough because they need something else. Some physical attribute that I don’t have. I shouldn’t want someone who thinks like that, I tell myself it all the time but you get pulled in and you’re told you’re great only to have the rug snatched out from under you and your head hits the hard floor. One of these days it’s going to happen and my head is just going to smash to a million tiny pieces.
If she’s so great why do you keep talking to me?
Why do you keep talking to other girls?
What the fuck is wrong with you?
With this pain it’s easier for other ones to keep surfacing. It’s like a gashed open wound and all the blood and puss just keep coming through. I keep thinking about someone who told me how important personality is and how it’s so much more important than looks yet while taking me out for a drink kept texting this other girl the entire time. Then a kiss and the words it’s really not fair to her.
If it’s not fair to her why would you do that to me? What about what is fair to me? The worst part about it, we’re still ___________. It’s like a guy needs to make sure they emotionally destroy me before just being friends. Why do I keep getting punished?
I can’t do this anymore so I stopped talking to the guy above. From time to time he says hi, whatever.
Short notes:
How can something be "new" and "improved"? If it's new, what was it improving on?
(This post is fictitious, I'm not referring to any particular person nor talking about myself neither)
